BW early 30's
I have been separated for about 2 months now. I moved out as soon as I accepted that he had chosen the HW. I tried to 180, move forward and heal. There were a few slips here or there, but for the last month I have been very NC firm. And I thought I was doing really well. Got my own place, started eating healthy, taking care of myself, etc. I had to ask him about some insurance info, but figured that a formal request for the info wouldn't be too bad. no emotions, nothing personal.
Yesterday he started texting me. I know I should have ignored it. I know I definitely should not have agreed to meet him this morning. But today is our wedding anniversary, and I couldn't seem to help myself.
Long story short, I don't really buy any of the stuff he said about thinking this was the biggest mistake he had ever made. that he didn't think he still wanted to be with HW, and wishing he could come back
. I am not willing to be plan-B.
But seeing him did re-ignite this tiny spark of that toxic hope.
I am requesting a bucket of water to throw on that spark.
Separated March 2014
Kintsukuroi: the art of repairing broken pottery with gold and silver laquer, and understanding that it is more beautiful for having been broken