Well, it has come to that point. I'm 5 weeks out from her leaving and 6 weeks out from D-day. I'm actually holding up pretty well. Obviously, I still think about it all the time but I have moments in the day where I don't. I'm eating, doing household chores, played golf the past 2 weekends, and doing yard work on the weekends. The yard work sucks sometimes cause we both enjoyed it and did it together.
However, in our talks, all she keeps saying is "I don't know what I want". Really? Well, let me go ahead and knock your ass off the fence. Cause all that tells me is she is still seeing him or seeing someone else. Or at the very least still foggy. Whatever. We don't have kids. Already split everything. House and my car are in my name and brought to the marriage. She'll owe me half of a cc balance and has to refinance her car in her name and get insurance. Luckily, I didn't buy a house I couldn't afford by myself. Just in case something happened. Wasn't expecting this.
I'm starting to realize that this is an act that I probably will never get past. Better to cut ties now and get on with my life.
What sucks though is we live in NC. For those that don't know, we have to be separated for 1 year before we can file for divorce. Even with infidelity. Oh well. Time to get on with it.