So the 29th was our anniversary... I had a difficult time picking a card out for SAWH, but I found one that was appropriate for where we are right now. He didn't get me a card. We went to dinner and when I got in the car he handed me a hand written note on a scrap of paper. When I read it initially it was very sweet and touched me. I tucked in my purse, and we went to dinner. Dinner was pleasant and we had a lovely time.
Yesterday, I found the note in my purse and read it again. My heart stopped and I triggered hard core. I remembered in the email exchanges that OW had told me their "symbol" was a heart that he had hand drawn on a home made card for her with a note as well. That she kept it in the back of the picture frame with his picture next to her bed. He also drew a heart on the card he gave me.
I don't know whether he forgot her gave her one like this. I don't know if he's just pulling out whats easy for him (he's an English major and likes to write). I don't know if I should say something or let it go?
My thoughts go to doubts as to why he's with me again. Is this just part of his wayward pattern. Our very first valentines together, we didn't have any money He wrote me a poem promising that I could trust him and that he would never betray me. That was clearly a bold face lie. Why should I believe that these words are any different?
I hate feeling like this, I hate feeling like I can't believe a word that comes out of his mouth about anything to do with love, emotions or relationships.
Should I tell him how I feel about this card and how it triggered me?