Wednesday my WH was very sweet and bought me an (overpriced) mother's day gift. If you had asked me then, I would say, "we are solidly into R"
Thursday, I was having a stressful day. I stopped Prozac several months ago, and I think I need to get back on. I am just grumpy and irritable and mean. I wanted to talk to WH about this and he was having a stressful day, and rejected me, "I cant talk, I need to be alone"
Today, I am thinking, "I dont care, he is never there for me when I need him. I want to pull the plug." I have been thinking how I can tell him, lets do this fast...
We went thru divorce (were were in the process for a year and it was almost all done when we halted the process. We were separated for almost 3 years-- 1 year was active, nuclear divorce (multiple court dates, $75,000, psych evals...etc) but two of those years we were going to therapy in the hopes of trying to R. Papers were withdrawn about a year ago, so, legally, we were in active divorce for over 2.5 years.
Im what keeps this family together, and seriously, i dont know if i want to anymore. its freaking EXHAUSTING. I am the only parent. Its like I have 3 kids.