Anyway, I'm trying to get my ducks in a row to prepare myself - mentally, emotionally, and financially - to file. I do NOT want to have to give this lying cheating man spousal support, nor support him with health insurance or my 401k retirement savvy. I'm thinking it would be reallllllly nice to quit, and take some time to myself - perhaps a couple months that I can keep up appearances and establish that I am not in fact the income earner - and I could travel to see family and friends, regroup, enjoy life again (!) etc. I also hate this job! It's not what I wanted to be doing, I just took it as a temporary interim, to bring us to a new/better chapter in life, which has turned out to be a nightmare and a disaster. I will not be staying here long term, perhaps even short term, but it is good pay and benefits in the meantime. I thought I could wait out the year (to look good on my resume, and to live out the year rental lease), but I am so disgusted being around this man, I don't think I can take it.
On the flip side - I am terrified of the future, and my future security (even though I have been the breadwinner).
Can I please please quit this job? I think I need permission...
[This message edited by alleyk at 8:43 PM, May 2nd (Friday)]
I have always been an over-achiever, but I cannot put any effort into this job, and I and waiting/wishing/hoping they fire me.
Or, I quit.
Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it.
I hate that I have to get strategic like this, I've always lived authentically... But when dealing with a lying, cheating, manipulating WH - what else can I do????
I'm no longer worried about who thinks what or expects what. I am going to do what is best for me and damn the consequences.
If a lower paying, less stressful job was what I thought was best for me, I'd be doing that too.
If I could afford to quit my job and take care of ds, myself and the baby I would do that too.
But I'm not in a major legal battle with my D. At least not so far.
30 days away.
To survive the economic consequences of D you may HAVE to work, but why be stuck in a job you hate?
I am not in R..I am getting my ducks in a row too..I have been the main breadwinner all of our 38 year marriage..
I was old enough and had enough service years to retire at my job ..I had the choice to retire last year, or keep working there and take a forced retirement in 3 years time due to downsizing..
I decided to retire last year due to health reasons..Within a day of coming back from a 4 week FMLA, I gave my employer a month's notice and retired....At that point I had been working same job and company all of my adult life without any extended breaks at all..
So I decided to draw on my full pension and take an extended break...I have been retired 13 months today..I would have felt just as stuck in my situation had I kept working at that job..I was completely unhappy and stressed about every aspect of my life... My pension isn't much money monthly but I get by, and I feel like I can breathe a little now.. I haven't filed yet..My cheating WH has had to take up the slack and get a full time job..About time...
Don't quit just because D in on the horizon, but by the same token don't let job burnout be another stressor to add to your full plate..
[This message edited by doggiediva at 10:25 AM, May 4th (Sunday)]
60 years young..