Just looking for some reassurance and words of encouragement from those who have BTDT.
I just passed my dday anniversary, and the anniversary of my divorce being final is later this month. Since then, I've been living in what was the marital home, by myself. The mortgage is in my name only, and the payment is huge. The house itself is huge. After the D, I knew at some point I was going to have to sell. Financially and emotionally I guess I needed the last year to sort of let the dust settle, but now I'm ready to move on.
I've talked with a realtor friend about selling, and she assures me sales are fast in this neighborhood right now. She may have a buyer before I can even officially "list". I found a nice apartment and put down a deposit to hold it.
Everything is going smoothly, but I have moments where I feel unsure. I HAVE to sell this house, I can't afford the payment and I can't handle the upkeep. Mostly I'm excited for a fresh new start. I'm going to have to sell a LOT of stuff to downsize into the much smaller apartment. But its fun picking out new things. Right..?
I'm not sure what I'm scared of. Maybe its living in an apartment for the first time in 15+ years. Maybe its letting go of the memories, both good and bad, that happened in this house. I don't know how I'm going to feel the day I lock the door and walk away from here forever.
Please reassure me that I'm doing the right thing. That I'll be okay. That apartment living won't actually be hell after having my own house. If you are someone whose done this transition already, what unexpected problems did you face, either logistically or emotionally?
I guess what I'm feeling is normal, because this is a really big step. And it's happening fast. It took me a year to be ready, but now I am and things are happening very quickly. I think that might be better though, because I won't have a chance to get emotionally bogged down. I'm too busy!
Ugh. It's late and I'm overwhelmed and rambling. Sorry about that. As always it feels good just to express my feelings here. Thanks for reading.
Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage. ~ Anais Nin
The memories will stay with you. Treat yourself to something nice and new, something that represents you. Simplifying is liberating. Being in an apartment gives you the freedom to take time and plan your future and move on easily. You will have more time for you than in a big house that requires a lot of attention.
[This message edited by stronger08 at 3:29 AM, May 7th (Wednesday)]
No family to speak of here (a brother about 2.5 hours away). My best friends are much closer now, but still about 3.5 hours away.
In the beginning, I was nostalgic about some of what I left behind, but downsizing is very liberating. I think quite a bit before I buy anything now. My only WTF moment was Thanksgiving when I made myself a lobster and realized I didn't have a nutcracker I used a hammer
I understand your apprehension of moving on to fit your budget. I moved from the marital home (5 bdrm old farm house on 2 acres in a small rural town back to the middle of a very large city into a 800 sq ft one bdrm apt).
I downsized almost everything from the house and when moving into the apt I still had too much and sold what I could or donated for a tax write off.
I have been in the apartment for a year.
I have missed the quiet of the rural town and the house. I had a hard time adjusting to sounds of the city and sharing a ceiling and an adjoining wall with the other apartments. These were the most difficult to work through but beyond that financially the best decision to make to decrease stress etc ...
Good luck with your decisions Ann
Please reassure me that I'm doing the right thing.
I would try to view it like the end of the M. It is sad because things did not turn out like we all thought. However, that is just one chapter and you have lots left in a very good book!
Don't feel bad about grieving it - that is natural for many. Like you said, it held both good and bad times. However, you still carry those good memories within you.
The release from the payment and responsibility from it.....priceless for your soul!
You got this!
You're going to be okay. Think of the positives:
1) you don't have to do lawn maintenance!
2) if something breaks, you don't have to fix it!
3) presumably you'll have lower housing/energy costs!
4) you're getting a fresh start!
I'm sure there are more I can't think of because I don't know the specifics of your situation or the amenities the apartment complex might offer. For instance, I recently moved into an apartment complex with a pool and a fitness center. I have a washer and dryer in my unit. These were big draws for me because me and DS can generate a lot of laundry- I didn't want to have to be going back and forth to the laundromat. Also, the pool will be great (and free!) recreation when they open it this summer.
I was scared at first, but I'm happy here. Idk. It's change, and it's scary. But you'll be great.
[This message edited by abbycadabby at 9:06 AM, May 7th (Wednesday)]
Bought a condo in a concrete tower downtown, loved it for about a year, then got tired of the noise and the neighbours, so I decided to look for a heritage rental.
Renting makes sense for me because I'm in the most expensive area in the country for real estate and I'm old, so carrying a big mortgage makes no sense at my age.
I don't want to deal with tenants or maintenance.
I found the perfect apartment in an old mansion in a beautiful neighbourhood. It has two working fireplaces and a new kitchen, and it's surrounded by greenery and peace.
I've downsized A LOT, and now have a pretty simple and care-free life.
No car, no pets, no mortgage, no HOA fees, no worries about bugs or weeds or roof leaks or plumbing.
The owners live downstairs and keep everything in perfect condition, so all I do is call if I need anything.
They love me because I'm quiet and so they don't charge me full market rent.
If you live in a city that has a similar neighbourhood, look into it. You may have to look at a few places, but the perfect spot could be out there.
If I were going to buy again, I'd buy in a heritage conversion.
[This message edited by FaithFool at 9:25 AM, May 7th (Wednesday)]
Houses in my area are selling like crazy. It is definitely a sellers market which works in my favor. On the flipside though, this almost unprecedented market we're seeing in my area means there's little negotiating on the buyer's side. It's pay asking price or someone else will. That also doesn't make sense for me now since, with my new freedom, I may be open to relocation at work if the opportunity is too good to pass on. Who's to say in 6 months, a year, or 2 years that I won't be taking a loss on selling any new place.
So...an apartment is looking more and more like the best option for me, along with downsizing the extra "stuff." I went from resenting the idea to kind of being more and more excited about it. Less clutter. A place of my own with no ties to me ex. Less maintenance, taxes, worries, etc. Also, I should be able to save more money for when I do buy again. Additionally, for when I feel ready to possibly date again, an apartment complex seems more conducive to meeting single women than living in suburbia surrounded by families. Add in free access to a pool and gym, and it's sounding better and better by the day. The only possible downside is when I do have out of town friends come in, I may not have the room to put them up. Then again, if it's just a night or 2, I can take the couch.
You'll be fine gypsy!
I'm here to reassure you that you are doing the right thing. Sure, there are things you will miss about your house. But remember--that's what it is--a house. It is YOU that made it a home. And you will make that home again--wherever you land. My kids, family and friends would rather hang out with happy and content meaniemouse in my tiny apartment than with tense and angry meaniemouse and the lying cheating creep that used to share our large and lovely home.
Look at this as a new adventure. You will be fine.
Spend some time browsing the small home tours at www.apartmenttherapy.com to get excited for the downsize!
I know that this is needed for you not just logistically but that it will also be wonderful for you in all sorts of other was. It will be freeing, a real; new start. I'm excited for you! Keep us posted. It's normal to be anxious, but in the end, you're doing the absolute right thing.
I remember when it all happened, I was so jealous of him moving out, to his new life, new place, new job, new woman.. while I was left here alone in the rubble and destruction of the life that used to be. It seemed so unfair.
I am very proud of myself for the way I have gotten through the last year, reclaiming the house and making it my own. I love it, especially now that its very much "mine" and no longer "his" or "ours". Leaving it will be hard, that much is certain.
But remember--that's what it is--a house. It is YOU that made it a home. And you will make that home again--
This is my time to make a fresh start. And I really like the idea of renting because if there is a maintenance issue, I don't have to figure it out and/or pay for it. XWH left me with many halfdone projects here and I am just so SICK of it. Also, if things change for me I will be able to pick up and move fairly easily.
It definitely is going to feel small and probably cramped going from a 2,000 sq ft house to a 974 sq ft apartment. This apartment will hold my home office as well. So I hope I LOVE it because I'm going to be spending many hours there!
Thanks again everyone and I will keep you all posted as things progress. Please cross your fingers that I get a fast sale on my house!
I spent 5 months living out of a suitcase in a friends living room after d-day. It was so nice, and simple, and I loved the area and amenities. Then I got a nice sized apartment, closer to my work, no frills, filled it with a bunch of my old stuff. I have fonder memories of the air mattress and suitcase
Now I'm living with an SO, downsized my stuff again, hate the area, but it is starting to feel like home, and all the moving is giving me a great idea of what I want when I do eventually decide to buy another place.
Someday, I will have a small home in a planned community with a boat load of amenities.
I got rid of so much...STUFF! It was incredibly liberating! I only kept the things that had very personal meaning to me.
Everything I love - everything that has a special meaning for me - fits perfect in this house.
I have a front door, with a parking space that puts my car closer than if it was in my driveway. I have a back door with a yard beyond - that I don't have to do anything but enjoy. There's a pool, full washer and dryer book ups ( I got to bring mine from the house) . It's reasonable, close to major highways . I'm learning my way around this new city.
So far so good.
You can do this.