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Breezy150 posted 5/12/2014 14:59 PM

I can not quiet my mind, it has been going crazy this last couple of days. Question after question about what I want, not about WH but me. I can't answer any if them. This is what I know.

1. I am miserable, physically and mentally miserable.

That's about it. I go from robot to crying heap and have anxiety attacks every day now. I can't analyze this or understand this and I feel helpless. There is no good answer R or D sucks.

Since DDay I have wondered either way what does it teach my DDs, because if either of them were in my shoes I would be telling them to run for the hills.

Today I get the kicker though, my DS comes over and tells me that he is leaving for a couple of days because he can't stand his wife. I try to tell him that he is chasing an impossible dream if he thinks marriage is easy or that any two people are 100% compatible. He answers "I would rather be alone the rest of my life than ever end up being like you or dad in marriage." Ouch! Yesterday he told me "Dad will never get it and you will never get over it so get D already." I told him that maybe WH would get it and do the work and be someone that deserves me and he said "Ya and maybe tomorrow unicorns will fly out of my butt, he has never deserved you."

I just need a mental vacation, I need my head to shut up. I need to quit crying. I am such a mess right now, can't last forever though.

Done venting, just had to get it out.

Ostrich80 posted 5/12/2014 15:13 PM

"Dad will never get it and you will never get over it so get D already."

My ds tells me the same thing


Since DDay I have wondered either way what does it teach my DDs, because if either of them were in my shoes I would be telling them to run for the hills

This too I've thought to myself I would be crushed if one of my DDs lived in my sich.

I don't think there's an easy out and I am miserable but still won't make a move. Just wanted you to know your not alone

Breezy150 posted 5/12/2014 15:33 PM

Thank you so much, I thought I was just finally going crazy. Somedays I actually think to myself I should just get used to this because I can live with it, just miserably. I know that's not a good way to think but some days my give a sh#t is just broken.

Ostrich80 posted 5/12/2014 16:02 PM

Somedays I actually
think to myself I should just get used to this because I can live with it, just miserably.

Yes and it scares the hell out of me. I feel like the fight in me is gone

[This message edited by Ostrich80 at 4:03 PM, May 12th (Monday)]

nowiknow23 posted 5/12/2014 16:05 PM

((((Breezy))))

gonnabe2016 posted 5/12/2014 21:21 PM

Breez, perhaps your subconscious knows that your WH is not R material and that is the reason behind your misery.


I told him that maybe WH would get it and do the work and be someone that deserves me and he said "Ya and maybe tomorrow unicorns will fly out of my butt, he has never deserved you."

^^^this is pretty powerful stuff. Maybe you should *sit with it* for a while.....


{{{Breez}}}

Breezy150 posted 5/12/2014 21:36 PM

I know, it all just sucks. He is really doing so much better, but maybe I don't care, maybe it is just too late. That is what makes me the most mad is that all this was so repairable, we could have had that wonderful marriage at the end of the rainbow, if he just would have said something before the A. What a waste. Thrown away for nothing.

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