I am in your similar shoes except my kiddos support me more than drain me emotionally...
The kids put me through a lot during their teenage years but they are settled now..Both kids live on their own..
I also have no need for romantic partner at this time , maybe someday in the future..
I had thought of staying in the same house with my WH as a room mate for indefinite period until one of us dies...
Our house paid for, I am a retiree living on a pension.
But I don't have that luxury..
The reason is because I dread anybody googling my married name and seeing exactly who I am living with..I am too ashamed to stay with him indefinitely...
R has been off the table.. We are in-house separated, I am getting my ducks in a row for D.. In the meantime I tell those people who ask, but who have no real need to dig or investigate into my situation that I am separated..
I use my maiden name to identify my work, my art..
In house separation is so very isolating, it is awkward to have friends in my home if WH is there, so I hang out with friends somewhere else..Other than the kiddo's staying, I don't host overnighters with family members..
I dream of having my own place that I can decorate, and where I can enjoy friends and family without the awkwardness of WH being there....If I can fund my own small corner of the world without un retiring, everything else about divorce will be much more bearable..
That leads me to a question for you..
What do you do for yourself to make the days worth looking forward to? This is something I need to work on..I find that I am letting the world pass me by for a whole week at a stretch sometimes..
If I get up in time to see and shoot the sunrise this turns my day into a good one, even if I don't do much else during the day..Also a trip to my local Starbucks by myself or to meet up with a friend does wonders for my day..Neither of these I do as often as I should, lol..
Do you get away from the house?..Have any fur babies?
Not everybody needs a marriage or romantic partner to have a full and pleasurable life..
[This message edited by doggiediva at 6:24 PM, May 13th (Tuesday)]