alwaysstressed, it will come. As everyone said, he is not healing.
You will, but it takes time. I was told that when a divorce happens, especially with adultery, it is not a surgical cut, it is a rip or tear. Pieces of you went with him, and piece of him with you. Let time take care of it.
I am 4 years out, and just starting to feel good. I still get triggers, and let things bother me, but they are happening less and less, like weeks between episodes, compared to the first year, it engulfed me from first wake until I fell asleep from exhaustion.
But, you have your children, friends, hobbies...use them in your healing. If you believe in God, ask for help.
You are doing much better in your healing then he is. He has not even on the right road or state of mind...
By the way, I am with you. I think that date will be entrenched forever. Not like a birthday, or anniversary, but more like when a parent died, or a major car accident, or 9/11. It will be there forever. But, later it will be just another date, and the impact of it will be diminished.
Keep it up. (((alwaysstressed)))
You're an interesting species, an interesting mix. You're capable of such beautiful dreams and such horrible nightmares. You feel so lost, so cut off, so alone, only you're not. See, in all our searching, the only thing we've found that makes the emptiness bearable is each other. - Contact
[This message edited by Linus1968 at 7:12 AM, May 14th (Wednesday)]