Hello, quick update: Still in the healing process, it's been over 4 months now and fortunately all the crying/mess of the first 2 months are gone. I'm 1,000% sure I don't want to go back to my ex. It's over and now I understand it and think it's a big step. We are still working together and this is the part that I know I have to fix because it could be slowing my healing since almost everyday he begs me to go back 
Anyways, I still cry once in a while but not everyday like I used to. The thing is this: Most of my family lives out of state and the family that I have in CA live kind of far and sadly are not very supportive 
also, my married friends are busy most of the time and we get together maybe twice a month, my single friends 4 out of 5 times I invite them to do something they say they can't. I joined some meetup groups for hiking but they are far from me and my car is old so I cannot always go. I met a really nice lady on one of these groups, she is busy all the time but once in a while we go out. On Thursday i volunteer to feed the homeless and I have met nice people there. So most of the time I am alone, which doesn't really bother me much...I hike alone, I read a lot, I watch movies at home and TV series, etc. Weekends are usually the worst, that's when sometimes I feel like I want to give up (call/text ex) but I haven't. So do you think it's good to spend too much time alone? do u think this can slow my healing process?
I forgot to add that I opened an account in a dating site...I closed it after 3 days! lol I'm sooo not ready to date! Every time I received a message I felt nauseous and stupid. So that's good. At least I know I'm not ready 
[This message edited by Angeles85 at 3:26 PM, May 14th (Wednesday)]
