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Bad memory with recent flashbacks

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 LostinNH (original poster new member #43424) posted at 4:44 PM on Thursday, May 15th, 2014

Not only what I did was horrible....damaging to the man I love and want to share my life with, but my ability to remember just WTF happened is beyond me. I get little "snapshots", usually in my sleep, wake up feeling like crap and deciding to overcome the loathe some, feel-bad-about-myself, selfish shit and try to make the day a good one. Major life events recently; loss of his job and transition to move cross country, serious car accident (me), immediately followed by moving then unexpected loss of my job. I'm feeling scared. Sad. Anxious. Worthless. And like a failure in many ways.

I'm BiPolar and take mood stabilizers + anxiety meds. In the "queue" for new psych appt which could take 8-10 weeks, ugh.

We have a teenage son and I am failing him miserably. My husband is unhappy thankfully, our girls are living away (college) and don't see the hole we are falling into...

Shouldn't running in a circle bring you back to the beginning where you started?

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remorsefulww ( member #42029) posted at 4:56 PM on Thursday, May 15th, 2014

When you get these snapshots do you write them down? It could help with a timeline so you can remember.

DD 1 2009 EA/PA, DD 2 2014, broke nc 2015.All the same AP
His DD 9/16/2015 ONS & EA,PA with coworker.
Mad Hatters
WW/BW Me
BH/WHJSG1

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 LostinNH (original poster new member #43424) posted at 5:54 PM on Thursday, May 15th, 2014

Good idea....hadn't thought of it. Thanks.

Shouldn't running in a circle bring you back to the beginning where you started?

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