Are you separating?
On not having a baby, no. You agreed to that. It doesn't matter if he has 12 kids by 5 women. YOU still agreed not to have kids.
Stay calm. You can adopt. It's not as awful as a lot of people think. And frankly, I'm starting to think it's easier to just have a baby 100% on your own so you never have to argue about pickup and drop off or him introducing your kid to his gf.
I'm going to assume he gave you HSV? Consult an attorney. You may have a lawsuit for your pain and suffering. DO NOT have any kind of sex with him it can totally nullify a lawsuit. If you already have, stop.
Stay calm. Your primary outbreak is your worst. The first year is the worst after that outbreaks become less frequent and less severe and often disappear entirely as your body continues to build up antibodies.