I am wondering if anyone else had this issue and how they dealt with it.
The real problem is, if I have things that trigger this I do not know what they are. I feel like I am shutting down, and I really do not think that this is conducive to my relationship with my BS or my outside relationships with friends and family. I really don't know what to do.
It is like my mind is just scattered, and I feel like it is getting worse.
After I finally did tell him everything I was able to calm down a little.
If you are being totally transparent and the whole truth is out, your nerves are because of the stress of the aftermath of d-day. Keep being honest, work on yourself (IC, like stilllovinghim mentioned), and be patient. It should even out after awhile.
"That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt."
* I am a RS (Recovering Scumbag)
* Do as I say, NOT as I did. :-(
* I acknowledge the grace I have received. I know do not deserve it.
Working at IC helped.
I feel really uncomfortable talking about it, because I am not sure what information could further damage us. I am not intentionally holding anything back, but trying to remember it is like reaching back through pain, if you understand the analogy.
I am so messed up over this, because I never realized I could hurt someone so much.