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No12turn2 posted 5/20/2014 10:11 AM

I love coming here when I need support. Always get good advice and plenty of much needed hugs. I'm in a great place with my healing.

When I come here on good days, it seems to bring me down a bit. I've been keeping a journal on my triggers and what makes me want to act like the desperate doormat that she wants me to be. Seems like my good days can be shifted by my presence here. Not sure if I just need to stay away on good days and let the healing take place or if you guys have any creative suggestions that could keep me on track? As much support as I get here, I often feel obligated to share the wealth. So many here that need it and I'm happy to help when I can.

[This message edited by No12turn2 at 10:11 AM, May 20th (Tuesday)]

IrishLass518 posted 5/20/2014 10:16 AM

No12turn2, I also went through a phase like this. It is okay to not come in on a good day if you know that it may bring you down. It is okay to step away for awhile. I spent a ton of time avoiding JFO and NB and the W forums just to keep my sanity. I only read or posted in D/S or general. It takes time and then you dip a toe into other forums and you either jump in, wade in slowly or turn around and say not yet.
If you are having a good day, have a good day and don't intentionally mess with your own healing. Trust us, we get it.

Thinkingtoomuch posted 5/20/2014 10:51 AM

I think it can affect your moods some days. If you just stay away for a few hours, days, and then come back and you may find a renewed strength or need or growth or whatever. You'll be able to tell. It's all a learning experience.

And regardless, I always learn something on SI. It seems to have the right thing at the right moment. Even if it's crazy things to laugh my heart out. Better my heart go that way than the other.

So you'll know one way or another.

justinpaintoday posted 5/20/2014 11:19 AM

I feel the same...some days you thinking "nope, don;t have the energy for that" others you feel compelled to seek or give hope.

I think it's normal. I think eventually you either graduate the emotional need for SI and leave the nest or you switch more to the supportive "been there done that" role and help shepard others that could use a hand.

Broken1Again posted 5/20/2014 11:27 AM

Haha...I'm totally laughing with you. I know exactly what you mean. I will tell you it's ok to stay away on good days. You would think that on good days we would come here and offer support and feel better for helping someone and giving a shoulder, but oddly enough it's on my worst days (like today) that I come here and I feel much better. Surrounded by people who understand, who get it. Then I take my mind off of my own stuff by answering someone's post or offering a hug to someone who has JFO or sharing a laugh in the "stupid things WS' say" forum.

Don't come on your good days if it drags you down right now we understand and that doesn't make you selfish. It makes you someone deep in the throes of healing. Come when you know you can handle it, when you won't trigger like crazy or when you are feeling blue and need a good shoulder or two or (40k plus shoulders).

ButterflyGirl posted 5/20/2014 11:29 AM

I stick to General and D/S too. I dip my toe in NB now since my D is final, but I think I still have some anger issues, so D/S is better for me.

And giving back is definitely part of the healing process for me, and now that my D is final, hopefully I can help people just starting in D/S.

I had a few months of feeling strong enough to go into JFO, but for now, it's way too triggery for me.. Maybe one day I will feel strong enough for that again..

But some days it's better to just not post and not even look. When you are trying to support others, you can very easily project your own experiences into your responses and not be all that helpful or telling them what they really need to hear..

But I also just happen to like the people here, so when I'm not in the mood for triggers, they have this great forum called Fun & Games down at the bottom

Pass posted 5/20/2014 11:44 AM

No12turn2, your first priority is your healing. I agree, there are some days I just can't come in here. Like IrishLass, I spend most of my time in General, and Divorce/Separation. In JFO, the pain is just too raw for me to see at this point, and I can't deal with the hope in Reconciliation. I've been in the Wayward forum approximately twice, and just wanted to say shit that would reduce them all to tears, so I steer clear of there too.

So, don't worry about it, and just feel better. There will come a day when you can help others without detriment to yourself. You're a good person for even wanting to try!

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