It's so easy to judge based on what is posted here which is mainly the bad stuff. But what isn't posted, are the good times when WS was loving and caring. No one is all good or all evil. So it makes the decision hard.
I have also noticed that dealing with Infidelity is definitely a process. A few weeks out of D-Day, my sisters told me to "move on", "he's not worth it", "we never liked him anyway." It made me so mad at them. I just wasn't ready to hear it. Now of course, I'm leading the chorus of FTG!!
I'm like you that I have to stay off of some threads and out of JFO. I'm hoping it's just another stage of healing, but right now I'd tell everyone to get a lawyer and kick the bum/bitch out!
And last but not least, I really missed the physical side of being married. Before the hard and fast decision to D, I contemplated visiting Dipshit STBXH for a "Booty Call." I desperately wanted to feel that closeness and affection again. Two things stopped me. One, I didn't want to have to do STD testing again. Two, what if he said no? I would have felt awful. Now I wouldn't touch him with a 39 1/2 foot pole.
I'm gonna forget your name,
And one sweet day,
you're gonna drown in my lost pain. - "Sweet Sacrifice" by Evanescence
Double Betrayal D-Day 7/26/2013