Cayc, I would love to find a pattern. Hmm. I hadn't considered food. I suppose I could find something that works (somehow), stick with it extremely rigidly, then change one thing at a time and see what happens.
Things that come to mind --
* When I get sick, I get really anxious if it goes past a certain point. I'm not sick, I don't think, but it's a link.
* I had a diagnostic procedure done last week that required me to be sedated with propofol. I suspected that this would be an issue with my klonopin weirdness, because of the common GABA receptor stuff, but I've researched this and it's not usually an issue... but still.. like, alcohol makes me feel like this for about four days afterwards, but since I know what's going on it doesn't bother me as much. I just avoid alcohol.
* My life is changing a lot. Stress.
* EMDR can sometimes cause random things to appear. A lot of the feelings that get released when I exercised today and yesterday were anger and frustration, which is what I felt during
* I recently started "fixing" my sleep again -- this could be big; I'm changing my schedule rapidly so I get enough sleep, and maybe that's throwing me off temporarily (I slept a LOT this weekend, also).
* Food could definitely be having an impact. Like I said, I hadn't really considered this.
* My exercise frequency decreased dramatically lately, which I've taken steps to fix.
So yeah, I'll put a LOT of emphasis on keeping things stable and see what happens. I wish I knew why I'm so sensitive to change and if it will ever get better, though. I mean, I have a possible overseas business trip coming up and I am cringing at the potential jet lag (8 hour time difference).
Anyway... I guess when I have this stuff under control I'm a pretty happy camper. I just have to acknowledge whatever it is that I need, whether it's permanent or temporary, and take it seriously, and be willing to defend it against other people.
So frustrating.