"Sometimes your knight in shining armor ...is just a douchebag in tin foil!!"
So, as most of you know....I'm a very emotional person typically....and I've been taking Lexapro....an AD for about 3 weeks or more now. I know they are working. I don't cry much at all anymore.....I'm able to do day to day activities, such as working, taking care of my child, hanging out with friends, and working out without having to mentally push myself to do so which in the past was a struggle.
But, I noticed this morning....that I almost feel numb. Its like someone tranquilized my heart with novacaine and I can't feel anything. Its a very strange feeling. I've been happy....and I'm not emotionless....but I'm indifferent to things that used to bother me. I guess that's good right? Maybe it just freaks me out a little..... but I know I need the AD. I was in a bad place and they are helping me. I can tell.
I just wanted to know if numb was a normal feeling? My IC is going to ask me if I took the time out every day to "feel" the pain from my D.... and I honestly haven't.....I see no reason to take 15 to 20 minutes a day to grieve a man that isn't worthy of another second of my thought process..... but maybe that's just the AD talking? IDK....
ME - BW - 35
HIM - XWH - 39
D day: November 15th, 2009
Married: 5 Years, together 8
Divorced: December 13th, 2010
New Beginning: Piper/8-3-12