I sit here, looking at the damn weather forecast, and see what a beautiful day this memorial day weekend will be and wonder if he is taking the homewrecking white trash. It's already been plastered over the internet that he would be going (instead of working OT to pay back the tons of people who helped him during this 2 months of being unemployed.) Yes his priorities were always messed up, I bitched and he still continued to do whatever he wanted to do, but I digress.
I know it takes time, but as I sit here and try to train my thought process to say, you have court next week that's why you are thinking of this crap. It's over, you don't want that manster he has turned into, the man you married is long dead and will never ever come back.
I am truly excited about moving out of this daily reminder of what I will be leaving behind, my house that I loved from the minute I saw it, including 2 life furkitties, the pitbull that was my 40th bday present to myself (after my shadow of 16 years was dying..I lost a few life buddies during this false R), due to laws I cannot take her to any rentals, but most of all my kids. By their choice. DS 20 DD 19.
I look at both of them and want to scream don't you know what you are doing to me by not coming with me, they know I am very sad that they aren't coming, they both want to freeload off the X, and mom said she needs help with bills and stuff. You 2 are the best things I have ever created and are all I have to show for my life thus far. Let's all do this together...new beginnings for all of us (my DS just recently broke up with his first true love, has a decent job, been trying to get him to go to school, he won't) (DD is applying for cosmetology classes, this is a huge step...she has done nothing since she graduated). Everyone says, they will wake up and come back to mom...but it's always been us 3 and I won't know how to handle that, a bridge I will be crossing soon.
It's just hard to fathom, that I am losing so much because of his betrayal, it's not fair.
This time thing is a killer, I constantly hear, your future is bright, you can do so much better, blah blah blah. I want my degree now, I want to be able to afford a nice place all for me and my killer chiwwwahhhwwwwahhhaaa, instead of having to be a roommate for a few years, getting storage units and struggle for years.
Everyone tells me how pretty I am, you are a catch, he's such an idiot, how I am not going to have a hard time finding someone...why is this an answer to it all? Find someone else? This the last thing I want, to me...that would be more stress!
Just having a pity party of one on this bright beautiful morning...am I divorced yet???
why is this an answer to it all? Find someone else? This the last thing I want, to me...that would be more stress!
Not my answer ^^^
I've been alone since 2009 and loving it. I'm working and in school also, so being alone gives me lots of space to just focus on what I want to do at any given time.
It's relatively stress-free.
Sorry about your doggie, and your kids, well, they'll come around.
Once the D is finalized you'll feel sad, but also feel released and will be able to move on.
In the meantime it's OK to be angry. This shit is hard...
(((ABS)))
My kids are younger than yours, so they're still with me. Dipshit wouldn't be able to handle them more than just weekends. I can't even imagine how difficult it is for you to see your kids loafing with your X. I pray they'll come to their senses soon.
It's heartbreaking to have to give up a furbaby. I lost my kitty companion in the D. My mom's super allergic to cats, so Dipshit gets the cat. At least the kids get to see him (the cat) on weekends. They tell me he's doing well.
Losing activities because of X's lifelong obesession. Ugh! I refuse to let this happen. Dipshit is a Die Hard Cubbies fan. So what am I doing? I'm going to a Cubs Game with the SI G2G in Chicago!! FTG!
((AlwaysBeenStrong))
Double Betrayal D-Day 7/26/2013 Divorced 11/18/2014
Gemini, I guess I never really enjoyed his passion, obsession. I hate the fact that we never had family summer vacations, because it revolved around his games. My kids weren't sports fans either, ya know. But give me some Red Wing Hockey and I am so there next year I am sorry about your kitty. I do get my sausage man in the divorce. My husky was 16 when he died...right before, I bought a small dog, (my evil chiwwwahhwaahhhaa lol) to keep him active and it helped, after he died, I got my shepit (shepard/pitbull mix), my animals are my shrinks, they have been through all this mess with me...it breaks my heart to leave them behind...more so the kids sometimes...LOL.
