I am currently 36 weeks pregnant with a HB baby. WH has done many things to show his remorse and progress to lead him away from the situations that enabled his As. He has changes jobs so that he works from home 90% of the time. He has changes his cell # so that OW#1 cannot contact him. He has found us a great MC that while expensive, is really good and has helped a lot.
Why do I still not feel safe? Was too much damage done? Was there too much at once? For a brief run down: I had DD#2 at the end of September. At that point I disclosed to my family re: WH's As as I had contacted attorneys and had planned to file D. WH came home and begged for a chance. Hence the HB. Two weeks later, my mother passed away. 2 weeks after that, I found out I was pregnant.
I don't know what I'm doing. I am not even sure I am going to have him in the room when I deliver this baby. My anxiety is out of control and I feel so lost and alone.
ETA: 1 week after my due date is the 2 year antiversary of DD#1. So that is another stress, to have this baby before then. I couldn't bear for my child to have that as a birthday.
[This message edited by freelancer at 2:14 PM, May 25th (Sunday)]