I keep having these childhood memories.. generally good ones. Sometimes it's happy--it channels an old mood and it's in sync with how I'm feeling, or it's a warm and fuzzy nostalgia. But sometimes remembering the happy stuff makes me sad because I miss it. I feel like it could have happened yesterday, but in reality so much time has passed and it's all gone in a sense. And it highlights how dark and bleak my life has been in the interim. Not all the time, of course. But I've been through some very prolonged, very dark times.
This is new with the EMDR target I started a couple sessions back (not surprisingly, one that took place when I was around 13.. and I'm remembering stuff from around age 7- age 13). Before... these memories were buried under a fog. It's like I'm finding bits of my childhood again.