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User Topic: Why You Chose Your BS
IAteTheApple
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Stop  Posted: 2:28 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

I'm struggling (yes, after a year if anyone recognizes my name) with choosing my BH over my AP. My marriage was in a horrible state when the affair started. AP keeps sending me why messages and while I'm not responding it is weighing on me.

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Deeply Scared
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Default  Posted: 2:50 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

WHy are you not blocking the AP? Does your wife know that she's still contacting you?


"Don't give up, the beginning is always the hardest." My Mom:)

My tolerance for stupid shit is getting less and less.


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MissesJai
♀ 24849
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Default  Posted: 3:11 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Why are you asking us why we chose our spouses? Why aren't you asking yourself why you need a pros & cons list?
My marriage was in a horrible state when the affair started.
If your marriage was TRULY that bad, then leave your husband. Call it oversimplifying, but honestly, it's that simple. Clearly, you've taken the A underground because you are still in contact with your AP, which is why you're so torn.

Be honest with yourself - just how horrible was your marriage when the A started? When you say horrible, what do you mean? Abuse? Multiple affairs on both sides? Financial infidelity? Porn addiction? I'm curious to know how you define horrible.


FWW - 41
"Don't think first about the risks of speaking up. Think first about the risks of not speaking up." ~ Kerry Patterson

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IAteTheApple
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Default  Posted: 3:18 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

All of the above, pretty much. Substance abuse that led to verbal abuse, multiple affairs by him, porn addiction, major financial infidelity.

He's sober now, but it's scary and I don't feel the same way that I did before everything happened. I want to, I suppose.


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MissesJai
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Default  Posted: 3:19 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

He's sober now, but it's scary and I don't feel the same way that I did before everything happened. I want to, I suppose.
Does he know about your A?


FWW - 41
"Don't think first about the risks of speaking up. Think first about the risks of not speaking up." ~ Kerry Patterson

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IAteTheApple
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Default  Posted: 3:21 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Yes.

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sunnyrain
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Default  Posted: 3:40 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Have you ever been successful with NC? If so, for how long?

[This message edited by sunnyrain at 12:41 PM, July 1st (Tuesday)]


"I'm not much into health food, I am into champagne."

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MissesJai
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Default  Posted: 3:41 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

and how has he responded to this knowledge?


FWW - 41
"Don't think first about the risks of speaking up. Think first about the risks of not speaking up." ~ Kerry Patterson

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IAteTheApple
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Default  Posted: 3:53 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Never been successful. For more than, like, 3 days at a time.

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MissesJai
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Default  Posted: 4:00 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

How has your husband reacted to the affair?


FWW - 41
"Don't think first about the risks of speaking up. Think first about the risks of not speaking up." ~ Kerry Patterson

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Jovie
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Default  Posted: 4:06 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Yikes what a tough situation.

My M was pretty horrible when my A started, and I place a lot of blame on my H's drug addiction for the M problems. After DDay, BH confessed his addiction to me and vowed to stay clean, which he mostly has so far. If I was going to have to go back to the pre-Dday M, I'm not sure I could stay.

BUT, I never had any feelings for my AP, so it wasn't a matter of choosing between the two, it was between H and nothing. I think that is how you should try to look at it. Your AP is just clouding up your feelings and your judgement. If you want to leave your BH, you should leave for YOU, not for your AP.


Me - WW, 33
Him - BH, 37
Dday - 12/16/13

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sunnyrain
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Default  Posted: 4:07 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Never been successful. For more than, like, 3 days at a time.

You should try it for 6 months, at a minimum.

[This message edited by sunnyrain at 12:42 PM, July 1st (Tuesday)]


"I'm not much into health food, I am into champagne."

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IAteTheApple
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Default  Posted: 4:27 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

BH and I split up immediately after I came clean. We were separated for a few months. He feels very responsible for the affair, even though I know it is 100% on me and have told him such. We've been in MC. He does not know I'm still in contact with AP.

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remorsefulww
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Default  Posted: 5:20 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

You need to choose and its not fair to your BH for you to still be in contact with your AP. why torture yourself more? With doing that you're still having an EA. You said you both are in mc, but are you in IC? What do you want?

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sunnyrain
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Default  Posted: 5:37 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

He does not know I'm still in contact with AP.

Personally, I don't care if your H knows or not. You know.

If you truly want to give your M a try, you need to stop contact with AP. If, on the other hand, you can't wrap your mind around giving NC an honest try, then at least be honest with yourself and leave the M.

Or, I guess you could continue to straddle the fence. But aren't you tired of continually having only one foot in either yard? Trust me when I say that it feels soooo good to have both feet planted solidly in ONE place.

[This message edited by sunnyrain at 5:38 PM, May 27th (Tuesday)]


"I'm not much into health food, I am into champagne."

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MissesJai
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Default  Posted: 5:41 PM, May 27th (Tuesday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

what sunnyrain said - word for word.

It's no wonder you can't choose. You're still in the A.

What do you want?


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"Don't think first about the risks of speaking up. Think first about the risks of not speaking up." ~ Kerry Patterson

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