So yesterday I get his June schedule again, and he has scheduled a number of nights and weekends with her. "Everyone is on vacation. There is nothing I could do."
Here is the F'd up part: It is going to take me a minimum of three years to get our finances in order. He keeps telling me "I'm not going to cheat again. We will get through this," yet he won't read any books I've asked him to, he won't sign a postnup, he lied through the couple of MC appts we had so I quit, and he doesn't go to IC because he knows he won't cheat again. And now this stupid schedule. I am at the end of my rope. So I tell him I'm done NOW. His response? "Give me the book to read and I will go to IC." He is an F-ing CHILD!!!!! He seriously pushes everything as far as he can before he will do anything. It's over, so I'm not giving him anything to read. I'm just mad that he doesn't SEE what an ass he is! I. Hate. Him.
So now I have to give up my beautiful daughter half-time because of HIS actions. That's the part that is absolutely killing me, and he knows it. He threatened that it won't be amicable, which of course it won't be...he's an F-ing spiteful jerk! Last night after I saw the schedule and went downstairs to get away from him he took Little Raven outside and played Dad Of The Year for all the neighbors to see. Didn't give two thoughts to her when he was in his A, but now...
Just venting. Ugh...my life!
I just hate how he says he will work on this one minute, and then he disregards my requests without a second thought the next minute. He could have called me and said, "Hey, Raven, I have a lot of people on vacation this month, so I am going to have to schedule myself on some nights and weekends with her. I'll do my best to limit it, but I just wanted to make sure you knew why." I am not unreasonable; I would have been appreciative of a heads-up. Probably not happy initially, but I'm getting good at stepping back and sorting through my feelings.
And I'm sorry for all the "F" words in my post. I was just so angry, and that is the best "vehement" word I have. Believe to or not, I never swore before DDay.
He doesn't get it he won't own it and you deserve much more. So does your daughter. Time to get strong for you. Tell him it's not your job to get him to fix what he broke because of his chappy choices and shitty boundaries.
Be done. 180 with clear concise times that he had to be responsible for your daughter.
Go see a lawyer and file.
Time for you daughter to have at least one parent that is strong and emotionally healthy.
Just thinking out loud.
This is it. The darkest day. The blackest hour. Chin up, shoulders back. Let's see what we're made of, you and I.
- The Doctor
Kajem, he has to work one night per week and every other Saturday. My request was to schedule her on a different night and the opposite Saturdays, but funny enough, the "switches" are to his night and Saturdays. Wow, typing that out I'm realizing how odd the Saturday switches are... Oh well. Anyway, he has 50% custody of his son, so getting our daughter half-time would be simple, but I would have first right of refusal on the night he works.
Which brings me to tushnurse. I did go see a lawyer, and basically I would be giving up my daughter 50%, which brings CS down and I'm only entitled to spousal support for three years. The L seemed to think it was in my favor that I quit my job to accommodate HIS son and not our daughter, since she wasn't born yet, but it's still a crapshoot, and basically in the long run he comes out way, way ahead of me.
I know I need to file. He isn't owning his sh--, but he knows he has the upper hand because of Little Raven. I went through Hell for 16 years with his son's mother, and now I'd be doing it for another 15 with him and whatever slunt (LOVE that word) he ends up with.
Three years should get us out of our financial hole, and that coincides with kindergarten, and three years out from there with his SS gets me to 2nd grade. I just have to remember to look at the big picture and get to indifferent with him until I can file. It's just hard when he acts like he did this morning.
Thanks again, you guys. You have no idea how much you mean to me!!!!!