Always know if the juice is worth the squeeze...
I think what you are feeling is totally normal! Everyone has different triggers. If the OW was a redhead, you'd have a problem with redheads...you get what I mean?
For me, the trigger is horses. OW had a horse and rode them. I used to love these huge beasts and found them majestic! Now when I see them all I can think is "fucking whore I hope you fall off your horse and break a leg!" LOL
Anyways...I think you could benefit from deathbybetrayal's post called "Honey, they always affair down" It's one of my all time favorite SI posts! here it is!
The OW could have been anyone. Literally. The sooner you realize that focusing on her gives her the power, you'll be better off. Don't even give her the head space.
Would you actually feel better if he had cheated on you with a black woman? I don't think her skin color, religion, hair color or anything else even matters. When someone leaves you for someone else, it hurts...no matter what color they are.
Focus on you! You're getting your masters degree? That's awesome! Don't let him take that from you too! Work hard...work harder!
Together 9 years
DDay: June 24, 2013