We were together for 7 years.. I met him whenI was still in my teens and we dated until my mid twenties.. we did so much stuff together and I was there for him through so much and times i feel im 100% done with this, I think of him. I dont want him but I think of him and I cant erase him from my memory. I get sad at what he did to me still. He left me for her and was so mean . He left us after 7 years and got with her at the same time we were still together. And told me he was happy and found the love of his life once again . It was so manic and sudden.. its hard to force someone out of your mind.. He was a jerk b ut we had a special bond and did so much fun stuff together when he wasnt a jerk.
Why wasnt I good enough? Im educated, live in a great city, have a lot of friends and think I have a good personality.. im not perfect.. but he was a drug addict so his mind has never been healthy.. just venting here im ok just random thoughts i cant share with friends whou think im so strong and beyond this.. maybe I am its just crazy one person is your whole world and then the next they collapse and flip your world around. .. I want true love with someone one day.....
OW was his ex he always convinced was his friend .. moved in her and knocked her up , got together behind my back
Ddays : many in 2009 and 2010
final dday : Sept 2012 after being broken up 3 w
Why wasnt I good enough?
You were. The problem is that HE wasn't good enough.
He is a lying, cheating piece of shit who couldn't appreciate the slice of awesome that he'd been handed. That is why he cheated. I swear it had absolutely nothing to do with you.
The best thing about hitting rock bottom is that everything after that looks fucking fabulous
HE wasn't good enough, and unless he pulls his head out of his arse and fixes himself, he never will be.
You're the winner here, sister; you have your dignity, integrity and a new partner who treats you with the respect you deserve.
Please don't waste any more of your life thinking about that guy. Sure, the fun times were nice, but the shitstorm he dragged you into certainly wasn't.
Staying with him will do nothing but create years of hurts. OW, drugs, possible child support payments, and the hits just keep on coming.
but he was a drug addict so his mind has never been healthy..
I would examine how/why you ever thought this was OK or that a relationship with an active drug addict was ever happy or healthy. This is the key to your future happiness - not what he is or isn't doing or feeling right now.
The sad clown is a functioning alcoholic. My father was a drug addict so I vetoed any/all drug use. Now that I'm not around he can openly explore that addiction. The alcoholism should have been a dealbreaker for me but I told myself the same lies all enablers tell themselves - he was a functioning addict so it wasn't a problem. But it was.
When was your DD? How long were you S before your new relationship? Are you in IC? What are you doing for your healing?
You would have read in here that broken attracts broken. Having someone in your life so soon doesn't fix the broken, it usually makes it worse.