I still think of him sometimes. Even though he was so rotten , evil, hurtful and threw us away after so many years for a gold digging piece of trash who was eager to get pregnant as soon as they got together.. I wonder if hes happy ( i heard hes not) I wonder if hes changed ( i hear he still goes out alot) I wonder if he thinks of me.. most importanly I Wonder if I will ever feel the same love I felt for him for someone else? I have been with soemoen for 6 months who is so good to me but I feel I have a wall up ..
We were together for 7 years.. I met him whenI was still in my teens and we dated until my mid twenties.. we did so much stuff together and I was there for him through so much and times i feel im 100% done with this, I think of him. I dont want him but I think of him and I cant erase him from my memory. I get sad at what he did to me still. He left me for her and was so mean . He left us after 7 years and got with her at the same time we were still together. And told me he was happy and found the love of his life once again . It was so manic and sudden.. its hard to force someone out of your mind.. He was a jerk b ut we had a special bond and did so much fun stuff together when he wasnt a jerk.
Why wasnt I good enough? Im educated, live in a great city, have a lot of friends and think I have a good personality.. im not perfect.. but he was a drug addict so his mind has never been healthy.. just venting here im ok just random thoughts i cant share with friends whou think im so strong and beyond this.. maybe I am its just crazy one person is your whole world and then the next they collapse and flip your world around. .. I want true love with someone one day.....
7 years together
OW was his ex he always convinced was his friend .. moved in her and knocked her up , got together behind my back
Ddays : many in 2009 and 2010
final dday : Sept 2012 after being broken up 3 w