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MissTrust (original poster member #43549) posted at 11:34 AM on Monday, June 2nd, 2014
I have noticed that we always have a bad week when my period is due. I seem to be ultra sensitive to the hormones since d-day, and even though on some level I KNOW that it is happening I can't seem to reign it in. Has anyone else noticed this? How do you deal with it? I feel like I should lock myself away from everyone. I get so out of control, start arguments and pushing my self destruct button. My WH is very patient and understanding but I wonder if one day I will push him too far.
Tomorrow marks 5 months since the bottom fell out of my world. I am not sure what is happening to me but this past week has been terrible, I feel like something has snapped inside of me. Like the weight of the burden has finally broken me,and I don't want to get up off the floor- I just want to surrender. I feel very strange, numb, empty, desolate and detached from the world. I want to sleep all the time, just to escape from myself because if I allow myself to think, many of my thoughts are starting to give me panic attacks. I am not particularly thinking any new thoughts than I have been over the last 5 mins- I have never stopped obsessing over the affair yet but my reaction to the thoughts has changed and now I feel panic instead of anger.
My period is due again but this time I just feel broken, I don't even have the energy or the fight in me to start on WH. I just feel like I've given up. I know it could be hormonal so I am hoping this will pass. I have been through almost every imagineable feeling but I don't recall feeling like this before and I'm a bit scared :(
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Furious1 ( member #42970) posted at 1:26 PM on Monday, June 2nd, 2014
My hormones do a number on me as well. Getting on AD has helped. Maybe you should visit with your doctor about this. Are you in IC?
BW (me): 46
2 adult kids
D-day: 10/4/13.
Divorced
ItsaClimb ( member #37107) posted at 1:39 PM on Monday, June 2nd, 2014
Me too!! 20+ months out and I STILL feel like R is going to come to an end every single month when I get PMS.
BS 52
Together 35 yrs, M 31 years
2 daughters 30yo(married with 2 children) & 25yo
D-Day 18 Aug 2012
6mth EA lead to 4mth PA with CO-W. I found out 8 1/2 yrs later
BrokenheartedWif ( member #40955) posted at 2:18 PM on Monday, June 2nd, 2014
I've noticed it as well. Affairs are just the Gift That keeps on giving. Our emotions, even on AD are all over the place, which is makes the PMS be on steroids.
He claims he loved me the whole time of his LTA. I'm not sure I'll survive his kind of love. Whorena The Cumdumpster pretended to be my friend the entire time as well. I'll take an enemy any day of the week.
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