It's only been a week and a half and I thought I was doing good with the feelings but so far this morning it has been rough. The lonely feelings are sinking in and I really hate this... I just don't know what to do.
The only person I really have is my cousin, but she's a manager at her store so she works a lot. I don't really have friends because I never had time for any in my relationship (because I took care of everything). Also it's hard to get out with both the kids because my son can be really difficult and I also have an almost 7 month old daughter.
I normally try to keep myself busy so I don't think but it seems the thoughts have caught up to me today. We have an appt at 9:15 and then once my mom and brother get home I am going to try to get to the counselor. They couldn't see me yesterday because I wasn't early enough (It's a walk in).
I just hate the lonely feelings... :(
D-Day #1 EA/PA Oct 2011
D-Day #2 EA/PA Feb 2012
D-Day #3 EA/PA Mar 2012
^On going affair with former girlfriend.
D-Day #4 PA April 2013
D-Day #5 PA May 2014
I cannot see any hope in R, I am truly shattered.