There are some things I have to get off my chest. Things just didn't seem right with me at our recent MC, the days after dday and things they are now.
She said: "I think it is time to grow up and stop bringing things up if you said you are done with them..."
Calling me childish is what your doing... Let's address what is truly childish. Using some piss poor excuses of porn, when you claimed you forgave me. If you forgave me and suppose to be Christian, you are supposed to act like the offense never happen. So therefore you engaged in affair under a so called "clean slate". Every excuse you used is invalid if you really forgave.
Further more it is real childish to tell everyone you had an affair 1st then tell your husband. You wonder why I am angry and made a stupid threat. Screwing someone for 3 years, since your daughter has been born and then running to your MOMMY and DADDY so you don't have to deal with this.
Angry, hell yeah. We agree to work on Reconciliation with your IC/MC at the time. She said set a date on moving back in and working on things. What the HELL YOU DO?! Sit around and go get hair cuts and go to the Xmas party and New Years Party with your friends.
During this whole time, you left me in pain, and not once did you consider the pain you caused me, but what you say, "I am sorry for hurting everyone..." How about your husband.?
How about that dumb Facebook post that last year was the best year. I guess so since screwing people who is not your husband.
Am I such a bad husband that after your affair ended that you would try to reach out other men, correction, wussies. Anyone who would go after a married woman is nothing but a piece of crap and anyone woman who would go after any man outside their marriage isn't worth the price of the wedding spent on them.
Mothers Day was a JOKE. To consider you a good mother after having a 3 year affair. Give me a break. I didn't realize sending your daughter to your parents while your husband is working 76 miles away and screwing some man in the bed your child and husband sleep in or some cheap sleazy hotel. Great mothering. Look your daughter in the face and tell her that you can still be a good mother by watching her. Tell her that it's ok to hurt your spouse by cheating on them, because that what good mothers do. Lie, Cheat, use money on some low down dirty dog.
At the most recent MC, you knew we were suppose to have a choice made. What the heck you been doing?! Sitting around on your candy butt, drinking Java Chips at Starbucks. Then you gave me that excuse that your busy with our DAUGHTER. HELLO, your daughter NEES A FAMILY, a mother and a father. Who the HELL sits around knowing that their daughters world is about to torn apart more than it already has. I THOUGHT WOMEN ARE SUPPOSED TO MULTITASK. ARE you a woman or not. Supposed to be a woman of God. You were up there singing and praising God. What a complete mockery and more fine example of a good mother.
You think I should stop bringing it up. HELL, you should admit what you did is wrong and demonstrate empathy... but you seem like you are more or less interested in your lover...oh WAIT. He went back to his WIFE, and you are at your parents. Well, I am sure a pretty woman like you with no boundaries will find someone who won't mind you had an affair because you didn't feel important, like you were not being listen to, and your husband watch porn. If you think that is not going to be a red flag to someone especially when they find out you did it for 3 years. Yea, I am sure they won't mind a liar, cheater, sex deviant or predator of married/single men when things don't go right in your relationship. REALLY GROWN UP and MATURE.
Another thing, don't be getting all whatever with me now and be all huggy and crap. That doesn't demonstrate anything. That's not remorse, that's not being sorry. How about apologizing for the pain, the hurt, the betrayal. How about looking in my eyes and say I am sorry for your pain instead of looking into my eyes and seeing that there is something still there for you. I do my best to follow the bible and yes I still love you, but I am more in pain but I won't let you see that because you don't deserve to see my pain.
I don't understand how you can be so broken and so uncaring. Who stays around in a marriage that they are unhappy about and go screw somebody else. That is someone who is wicked, evil and abusive. How do you use a man, who went to work to provide and attempted do things to make you happy but you treated HORRIBLY for those 3 years with nothing but lies.
You said you want to be best friends if we are together or not... I have yet to see actions of a friend.
And another thing. HOW DARE YOU say you don't think I can make changes for you.
Let me say this much. The affair was all about you, the MC/IC is all about you, but when will it be about me or us....probably never at the way you are going.
[This message edited by LostSamurai at 8:27 PM, June 6th (Friday)]