Tomorrow is the one month anniversary of our big move to another state! It feels like we've been here so much longer than that.
The bunch and I are all settling in our new home. The younger two bananas got to go to school for a whole week and a half because school here ended weeks before it did in our old town. Baby banana (11) absolutely adores her new school and already has made friends. She also loves the area. Middle banana (almost 15) is having a harder time but she's much better now than when we got here. Oldest girl banana (18) is looking for a job. She's a bit out of sorts with starting over (she's already out of high school) but is handling it pretty well.
I'm also finding my feet. Starting over at 46 is a lot harder than I thought it would be! Learning my new job (project management) is going to take a while... very long learning curve. I alternate between feeling confident and being scared out of my mind and missing my comfy bubble at my last job, one I knew inside out.
It's also been hard without my friends around here. I knew people here before we moved but not like my existing friendships, ones that took years to build. I know it'll all come - it just takes (all together now!) time.
Lastly, of course, my LDR is no longer LD... it's just an R. That took a bit of adapting. I was used to seeing him every four weeks or so (on average) and now, I literally see him every day and surprise... I actually like it. And so does he. We've both been very mindful of boundaries and so far, so good. Our kids cross paths a bit here and there (and all get along just fine) but we aren't playing happy families or anything like that. Neither of us want to go down that path for a while... if ever.
I'm also being very careful of not leaning on him too much or not making his life mine, you know? I know I need friends and activities of my own and I'm working on that, slowly but surely.
All in all, it's been hard and scary and sad... but it's also brought a lot of good. I know in my toes it was the right thing to do for me and the bunch and I don't regret it, even on the bad days.
Thanks for all the encouragement you guys gave me when I was thinking about this... and then when I was making it happen. We'll get there, one step at a time.