I hope your consultation with the lawyer went super well.
Why are you looking at a text during IC????? IC is a place and time to work on yourself. A text is an interruption.
I'd really like to see you reframe what you're doing. You see yourself as being pushed into D by a W who has some power over you. You could see yourself as accepting reality and choosing to D rather than stay in a terribly painful M with a woman to whom you've given too much power over you.
You call yourself a Samurai. If you really aspire to that, read a lot of Zen, a major principle of which is detachment.
D - don't
E - even
T - think
A - about
C - changing
H - her.
[This message edited by sisoon at 6:11 PM, June 17th (Tuesday)]