Thank you all so much! DS I felt the love and the hug!!!!
I often thought that through my journey I would come back and pay it forward. For a while, I needed to step away from here and take all the advice and grow on my own.
LA44, ask away, PM me I will help you if I can. I erased my story, not that I erased it from my mind, but this just does not define me anymore. Long story short, married 32 years, high school sweatheart and my H was on a business trip and met a woman who didn't want to have a deep relationship just a little fun. Well, she turned into a very sad person who could not let go and eventually, she attempted what she promised to do, destroy the marriage so he would come back to her. Unfortunately, she turned out to be a true "bunny boiler" and I am not making light of this. She was very destructive. I could tell you horror stories, but they are not worth my time, she only taught me lessons and I consider her a blessing in my life. Hope this makes some sense to you.
In any event, I read on this site like there was no tomorrow, I posted at my happiest times, saddest times and with a few too many in me but there was no judgement only caring people watching over hurting people. So...pm me ask away I took the advice on here and went with it and I thank God every day for the life that I have.