I am so sorry you are in so much pain right now. I think infidelity is one of the worst things that one person can do to another. There is a reason why not being an adulterer is one of the commandments.
You won't always be in this much pain. I know this isn't helpful, but time really is the cure. Part of your journey to wholeness, healing, peace and joy is to walk through this painful period.
There are many veterans like me around here. I am six years out from divorce and I am no longer in pain, nor am I bitter or full of hate.
It took a lot of time and effort on my part, but now I can say I am better in every way due to this horrific experience. I am happy and look at what happened with acceptance.
So, you can start today. What is one tiny thing you can do for yourself today that will make you smile and laugh? What is another thing you can do for yourself that shows self-care? Hot bubble bath, pedicure, nap??????
He has changed and found someone else. But, the likely hood of it being a happily ever after is slim as research shows on the internet. They can't possibly be happy together and truly trust each other knowing that cheating is how they got together. You will not see it, but I am sure their relationship will be filled with paranoid suspicion and mistrust. Every time they fight (which they will as the fairytale wears off), maybe he will think and maybe even bring it up -how he should have stayed with you. I am sure she will wonder if he has regrets or feelings for you.
Honestly, these men are not running to true love, they are running from responsibility and it will catch up to him in his new life.
You on the other hand get to move on and find someone who does deserve you. Someone better than him.
The pain feels intense. Especially the first few months out. I'm almost 1 year out and sometimes my mind goes crazy. For me, I realized the best way to relieve my pain was to be away from my H. I moved out 2 months after Dday. Best decision I made. It also helped me to make decisions without him hovering around me. You won't be alone forever. I promise you that. It feels that way now but you will feel better. As for the story he told OW? Who cares. No man ever started an affair with the story "my wife is an amazing awesome woman that thinks the world of me, our sex life is phenomenal! I love her so much..." affairs start with "my wife doesn't appreciate/understand/satisfy me etc etc etc" and whether it's true or not these idiot OW's eat it up. Don't worry about what he told her. It was probably a lie. AND no..the OW doesn't owe you anything but, what I don't get, as women why do we do this to one another? Their relationship was built out of a lie and I will bet, dollars to donuts, it doesn't last.
As the months carry on you will care less and less. I promise you that.
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**If I edit I'm correcting a typo!**
[This message edited by Ostrich80 at 2:28 PM, June 25th (Wednesday)]
I was 4 months out when I decided I did not want to be the bitter hateful person I was seeing in the mirror.
I made a list of nice things I could do for others and when the anger/pain was unbearable, I did something for someone else. It was one of the best things I could have done. It made me focus on others and less on myself.
. I also made a list of nice things to do for myself. When I was sad or beating myself up, (should have seen this coming, should have noticed, how stupid am I? I'm ugly.....) I made myself do something nice for me. To remind myself that as a child of God, I was not worthless or a loser. That was typically harder for me.
You will most likely still have times where you are sad or angry. How you choose to deal with those times is up to you.
"my wife doesn't appreciate/understand/satisfy me etc etc etc"
One day you will think of that quote and it will make you angry. It is about me...me...me... These men that cheat are all about me, not we. Not the partnership, not the M. There are plenty of people out there that are not like that. The proof is here on SI...the collective of BS that would never go that route. At this stage in your life, you don't need a me...me...me guy. As a mother, I am sure you had/have enough of that from your children which are learning to become we/us people. Leave the immature me man to his new fling to treat like an overgrown child.