So lately I have been having these weird thoughts ideas feeling.
I am okay, I am proud of myself and I like myself and I accept myself.
I want to shout it. I want to share it, Its like this energy inside of me saying its okay, LIVE!
My depression, times of self pity, my triggers, my feelings of self doubt, shame, anger. I know where its coming from and I know what to do.
I think I am actually trusting myself, I think I am finding my voice, my grounding.
Am I proud of the things I have done, No. I am ashamed for those things in my life. The realization is, I can't change it. It is. Its part of me, and I embrace that, I know why that part of me did what I did, I know the negative and I know the positive side. WEird yes , the human mind is insane really.
I get it. Do I wish it had been different, yes.
I just at this moment and time have a sense of peace, in all the craziness that is going around me. I realized I guess, I am not going to old coping, as soon as I feel them I change them. I am aware of my self. And it makes me cry with loveand acceptance.
I don't remember ever feeling this way.
Thank you for listening.