Anyway, as I am sometimes tempted to do when he's being like this, I started checking up on him. Looked at his FB which I hadn't done in ages and caught them chatting. Started taking photos of their chat with my phone so that I wouldn't convince myself I didn't see what I was seeing. They were deleting the messages as they came up.
To quote "But when I'm on my bed, c*** in hand, picturing your warm firm T***...My c***in your cleavage...your smile...easy to get hard:). So thank you...again...it makes me happy"
I know TMI but I have to make it black and white...I have caved inside. Mostly for my family - I am so sad for my boys. And me.
Detach detach detach.
Not much good advice, just wanted to let you know you've been heard and he's an ass. But I guess you already knew that.
I know it's hard, but don't pounce yet. Keep taking screenshots. Gather your thoughts, if you can.
I'll be around a bit longer if you need support. But know you've been heard. We're all here and have been through this and you WILL be ok. Hugs and strength.
P.S. He's on bed rest? Maybe you can go all "Misery" on his ass. I'm kidding - hoping I can get a smile out of you. Hugs.
It's just not that simple.
Take care of yourself and your children. It is obvious that he is not worried about any of you. While it would sound heartless being post op, tempting to pack him up and send him out the door.
Right now...make your plans on how you WANT to proceed. His repeat offense certainly can change things.
support being sent to you.
I'm sorry you've had a second DDay. I am glad you found SI again.
Time for self care, take care of you so you can take care of your precious boys.
Get your ducks in a row. You'll need the evidence to refute his lies to you.
We're here for you
ETA: Awesome that you trusted your gut was telling you something was wrong. More hugs, K
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Hugs
I think I'd be bringing him cold soup and dry crackers while he recoups from his surgery.
And taking away his laptop.
DDay #1 for me was his confession. I didn't have time to collect evidence because there really wasn't any.
DDay #2 (different OW) was my discovery. I wish I would have waited it out and collected as much as I could but I confronted him immediately with text messages. And I lost anything that I could have potentially used against him.
Keep posting here. Take care of yourself and start the 180. It is so hard but you need to do it so you can figure out your next move.
(((((StuckinBetween)))))
{{StuckinBetween}} Im sorry you are going through this. I pray you have the strength to make it through. Just remember to stay strong for your babies, they are the ones that matter.
Leaning towards leaving, no one deserves this pain.
What did you two do the first time you caught him cheating on you?
What are you going to do differently THIS TIME?
Past behaviors are a good indicator of future behaviors. If you rug-swept everything, then he's learned you are OK with him having affairs.
Are you? Is this the way you want the kids to grow up? Watching Dad disrespect Mom and having sex with other women?
You and the kids deserve better.
k9
Back soon. Have to put DS 3 to bed...
But what now? I am honestly considering some kind of platonic coparenting relationship and staying in the same house. Does anyone know of that ever working?
He is contrite, apologetic, etc. etc. etc. Acknowledges he doesn't get this relationship back but vowing to do everything right by me and the kids. He loves me, them etc. etc., and that his behaviour is about a sick part of him that manages to forget the impact of himself on me or them.
He is talking and talking and texting about all the things that he has been doing, the arguments conflicts, mindf*cking, etc. Trying to comfort me etc.
I had a really nice day out with the boys, mini golf, swimming.
But what next? I know for sure now that there will be no R with respect to our marriage. I don't want the boys going back and forth between two homes. I don't want to give over half my income (which he vows he would never make me do).
I am watching and waiting...
I have a 6 year old daughter. WW and I are stuck on fence right now and have been co-habitating but I feel awful mentally and a fraud. We are responsible for teaching life, family, and love examples and I don't think we are doing a great job. I hear you loud and clear though the two house shuffle is definitely sucky proposition. My wife is a good mom and DD loves us both so that is what is making this so hard.
As a betrayed it sees like there is absolutely NOTHING in it for us. Kids stay in same home but this home has so many bad memories and triggers for me now.
My WH and I are in an informal "in-house separation" after Dday 2. No legal papers filed although I saw an attorney who said, in my state, there could be an in-house separation when you consider the financial situation.
Both of us are in IC and waiting to resume MC (he took his A underground). I just can't share a bedroom with someone who could be so f-ing cruel.
Stay together and attempt a repair? I know I am not capable of loving fully after all of this.
Stay together in a co-habiting relationship? Maybe, but as you say, what about what we are trying to teach them.
Divorce? Doesn't teach them much good either. That their world can turn upside down. I have seen the blended families in action too, and it's not all that pretty either.
Oaks: you are co-habiting. Do you still consider R?
Divorce? Doesn't teach them much good either.
In theory, I agree completely. I am totally against divorce and would have preferred to work past the affair and honor our vows. WH isn't interested.
HOWEVER, I feel sometimes divorce is teaching children that it's ok to stand up for yourself if you're being treated poorly, and that you don't stay with someone if they are abusive just to stay. you also teach them that there are consequences to behaviors.
