I was at church and the Reverend brought up an interesting thought. She talked about the seasons of one's life and how happiness changes. What made me happy at 8, does not make me happy now.
This idea really struck home with me. For the last 30 plus years of my life, I've been married twice and raised my son. My idea of happiness had to do with seeing my son and spouse happy and the joy I derived from those relationships.
My son is now on his own and I am single. So, how do I define what makes me happy now? How are my core values changing as I move into this new part of my life.
I don't know how to do "single". Although I am finding things that make me happy - the sun glistening on the ocean, walks under the canopy of trees, juicy nectarines, graduating from school (yes!!!), time spent with friends, visiting my son, knowing that I have walked through hell the past year and a half and am doing just fine. I found my laughter again.
There are still times when I struggle with being alone in the house. There are times when I feel angry about the affair and times when I feel such a great sense of relief to not be in that marriage anymore.
There are times when I feel afraid, I don't know what my life is going to look like. I am looking for work. I have to sell my house and move. I have never looked for a place to live on my own, so this is new!
How have you redefined your happy?