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ProbableIceCream posted 7/1/2014 22:03 PM

I just finished day 2 of the trip. About 420 miles to go, which will happen tomorrow (Wednesday).

I'm extremely tired so I'm not going to write much, but it's been a nice trip, very low stress. Very freeing to finally be hundreds of miles away from a place where a lot of bad things happened, and currently where all my stress seems to come from.

Now I'm just left from stress caused by stuff that is inside me, but I never expected that to go away. I just wanted a new environment.

Most irritating thing being my difficulty getting my sleep right, and its interaction with my meds, but I'm sure I'll figure it out eventually.

I stopped at a place where I lived when I was ages 7 through 11 earlier today (the trip took me very close to it). I recognized everything, even 21 years later. It was very surreal. I sort of wish I wasn't so numbed out in general so I could feel more of things like that, but even through the numbness it was powerful. There's something about going to a physical place and touching and looking at things that brings back memories and makes things seem more real.

MovingUpward posted 7/1/2014 22:11 PM

There's something about going to a physical place and touching and looking at things that brings back memories and makes things seem more real

So true. Safe travels on your final leg tomorrow.

Weatherly posted 7/2/2014 07:29 AM

Have a safe trip! I'm glad the first part has went well.

Very freeing to finally be hundreds of miles away from a place where a lot of bad things happened,

Very true. I've said, many times to my H, I'm not sure that I like travel so much as I like running away from here. Too much bad here.

Amazonia posted 7/2/2014 10:33 AM

good update.

WeepingBuddhist posted 7/2/2014 14:06 PM

Glad it's going well!

Abbondad posted 7/3/2014 23:49 PM

PIC,

I tried to locate the origin of your "trip thread" to understand its context but could not.

But this struck me:

"Very freeing to finally be hundreds of miles away from a place where a lot of bad things happened, and currently where all my stress seems to come from."

I too am traveling. Partly to physically escape the Place of Pain and partly to "find myself" as a man alone (though with two little ones back home). A voice within told me to go. Nothing mystical about it. Just a feeling that as part of the healing process I must be on the move for awhile as much as possible. I've done this as a means of coping and growing during other frightening times in my life and these sojourns have indeed given a boost to my evolution. Ultimately for me it is to combat fear--fear of being alone, fear of myself, and above all, fear of fear.

Anyway, just a wave of my hand to a fellow traveller. We are taking ourselves away and within. We are on our way to a life in which we will no longer be defined by betrayal, but by ourselves.

All the best on your journey--literally and metaphorically.

[This message edited by Abbondad at 12:39 AM, July 4th (Friday)]

ProbableIceCream posted 7/4/2014 10:27 AM

AD, I'll reply in trip update 2.

Mods, could you please close this thread? I'll stick to "2".

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