Dipshit isn't military, but I understand wondering if it would have been easier if they died. I imagine it's pretty common in our situations, so don't feel bad.
For me, it definitely would have been easier. But for my kids, it's better off that the Dipshit is alive. So I'll put up with his continued existance.
I'm gonna forget your name,
And one sweet day,
you're gonna drown in my lost pain. - "Sweet Sacrifice" by Evanescence
Double Betrayal D-Day 7/26/2013