Forgiveness means understanding, acceptance and giving up on looking back.
Some days I just lie on my bed and space out, try not to think. Just be me
Looks like we joined about the same time - maybe it's a phase?
Trust is earned, respect is given, & loyalty is demonstrated. Betrayal of any one is to loose all three.
With me if I pretend like the feelings aren't there and rug sweep, those darn feelings come back only worse.
I try to feel and process those feelings the first time. It does take time to get through the shit sandwich we were served. But I tell you, it is a lot better on the other side.
I can't tell if it's killing me or making me stronger
Don't kick me when I'm down because when I get back up you are f****d!
It is literally paralysing at times. I can't move , talk, eat even simple tasks are a challenge.
It nearly ruined my relationship to a good client and took my business income significantly down the year of DD.
If I could only feel like that at 4am!
Sometimes the exhaustion is overwhelming, on days off I have had to just lie down and then end up sleeping for 3 or 4 hours, unable to get up.
I just go with it when I can. I think our bodies need it.
dday October 21,2012 dday December 20, 2013 wh deleted I attempted R, he was a lie
