My DDay was end of January, so just over 5 months, I'm still hurting as well, and wish I was further along. The tears are less often, but hit me unexpectedly still..
I broke down this week when I confirmed WH flew to OW town for the holiday. We just listed our house for sale and all the emotions caught me. Sad to leave our beautiful home, mad he has to put OW as first priority over house responsibilities, mad that I'm rejected and replaced, mad he can throw our life aside so easily, scared because I have no income except alimony and child support starting July 1 and afraid I have no place to live or a job in the future.
So many unknowns and I feel like all of this change was forced upon me. It comes down to feeling like I wasn't right, not enough, not worth fighting for, and that just hurts.
I need to find a better IC and continue to build my self esteem, strength, and independence. I know we all can do this, get through these low points and rise above. We are honest, loving people that are recovering from very traumatic life changing events. Keep looking to the future with hope. Me too.