So here we are, a year and 3 months out from DD and I still see the OW everywhere. I would love to move but it doesn't work with our jobs and family. WH has been great really. answered all my questions and honestly, I don't think I could have asked for him to be any better. I just still feel so betrayed and hurt. Her H actually figured them out so all parties know and they have stayed together too. I am stuck again. H knows this and has tried to give me space. Just says I am so sorry.
My biggest issue still is that he actually used my need for a friend to bring the OW into our house and befriend me and her kids and ours became friends. They had a PA in my house. He has issues with my weight (honestly I am a size 12 and was an 6-8 when we got married so we aren't talking HUGE weight gain here) but she is bigger than me. I keep trying to tell myself that it wwasn't her pyhsical appearance, it was how she made him feel. Something he said he wasn't getting from me. She made him feel special.
I just don't know. We have done some MC but haven't in awhile. I just don't know what else to say. We do talk. I just still feel so betrayed. It was a double betrayal because it was a "friend" and my spouse. R does well for a few months and then I hit this funk again...
I am just not sure it is worth staying together somedays. I love him but am I IN love with him. Am I still just staying for the kids?