I lost my husband, and father of my three kids, in March of 2010, after he fought a long and hard battle with Hodgkins Lymphoma. I didn't think that I would ever be able to love again until I met my boyfriend. We did everything right. We took it slow, didn't rush anything. I thought he completely understood and welcomed me as I was.
A couple of years ago, I noticed a couple of girls on his facebook page, and questioned him about them. He told me he didn't know them, they were just facebook friends. There was two women in particular that I continued to question, and of course he made me out to be the jealous type. He even broke up with me, but we reconciled very quickly, and I dropped the subject in fear of losing him. He also stopped using facebook, siting me as the reason.
Flash forward to March 2014....We are living together, he is very involved with my kids, and his child is involved as well. I added him to my family shared plan on my cell service. I get a weird message about paying to much for international calling, and I should switch plans. Thinking it was my teenage son, I check my usage data, and find that my boyfriend has been texting one of the women I had questioned on facebook. He denied anything bad was going on, but told me he would stop contacting her. A few weeks later, I got a hold of his phone, and saw the real story. They exchanged loving words, pictures, and all the things I thought he shared only with me. As the next few weeks went on, I uncovered more of his lies. The other woman I questioned was an ex, whom he told me was his cousin. He was speaking to another ex, until last year. He was constantly trying to connect to other women, the first two years. I also found out that the main ow, asked him to get off facebook, bc her boyfriend was jealous.
My entire relationship feels like a lie. I love him, but I just don't know where I am with it all. We don't talk about it, bc all he can say is "sorry, I don't remember, I only love you" blah, blah, blah. Everything falls so flat bc he was so awesome before this, so being awesome now means nothing. We got into a huge fight recently and he told me to forgive him, or let him go.
What do I do? I'm fine for a little bit, but then I am back to square one. Sorry for any typos, I don't type well on a touchscreen. Thanks for reading.