You may have post infidelity stress trauma, or you may have outright Post traumatic stress disorder.
Here is an psych central article that might help you understand it.
[This message edited by seethelight at 11:46 AM, July 7th (Monday)]
Many things trigger your mindset, tell your mind I know you're there but I'm safe now and move on with something else. Your brain is just wanting you to make sure you're safe. Just don't let it take over your whole life. Cry when you need to and stand strong when you're ready.
Like you, I can not bear to hear or see anything that reminds me of my H's A - that includes a lot of songs I used to like, scenes in TV shows or movies, even certain phrases. But hey! It hasn't even been 5 months yet for me!
Hang in there! Betrayal cuts to the very core of who we are. But, thank God, we are resilient beings and we will get through this! I have to believe that "that which does not kill us makes us stronger".
I'm Canadian. Please don't hold it against us!
I decided to rest my mind just the other day by firing up Netflix. What could be more mind numbing than an old episode of Cheers? Yeah, I clicked play and was faced with the episode where Lilith cheats on Fraser. Funny.
I don't know what to tell you to help, only that I am right there with you.
[This message edited by ChangeMaker at 12:08 PM, July 7th (Monday)]
DDay - June 7, 2014
Me - 44
XWW - Irrelevant
DD - 2008 and 2011
Ended the cruel joke April 1, 2015. Divorced.
This will, slowly pass though. It does get better - but it takes a long time.
I have triggers, too, movies, jokes about infidelity, even songs I used to like and now can't stand to listen to. Even comments about my weight loss - people telling me I look great and asked how I lost the weight triggers things.
I was thinking I had PSTD, too. "Glad" to read others feel that way, too.