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God. Give. Me. Strength.

These words have come to have a whole new meaning to me as of late. I used to think that there was something wrong with me for me to be single as long as I have been the last 2 years but I actually think God wants me to take this time to regroup, reassess, and reevaluate every misconception I have ever had that led me to attract the toxic unhealthy men I have previously been involved with. This is my me time to clean the slate and start anew.

I think that this time will only make me a better woman and help me grow and become a happier, healthier, independent role model for my daughter; someone she can love, admire, respect, and look up to. And maybe...... just maybe that woman will attract an amazing man that will love me for all I am and want to be mine forever and be a part of our life. I can only hope so. I have a big heart and there's room when the timing is right. My best friend reminded me of that recently. I love her so much.

As a BS and looking at the destruction a WS leaves in their pursuit of love and acceptance, we should want to take the time to heal. But our ego that has been chewed up and spat out yearns for love that shows we are more than what the WS did to us. But we are loved and accepted by God who gives us the strength to get through this.

I envy those who can marry quickly, but also feel that they take the hurt and damage into their next relationship. Hence the higher divorce rates for second marriages.

I like you, hope that time and education breaks the habit of picking the wrong type.