Well I am finally in my condo. Life is going okay. A little strange that I am place in this situation for the second go around but I am in acceptance and peace with it.
Is it normal that I haven't cried or felt a lose of anything? Maybe, it is because I have been a roller coaster for 5 long years and this is just a little piece of salvation for me.
Wh and I are getting along, I have no anger, self pity, sadness, it is what it is. Maybe it has not hit me yet or maybe I have had enough been through enough. I am moving on with getting to know me again and enjoying it. I like the feeling of not having all the drama in my face, I feel in control of myself again and my life. Like a weight has been lifted and that I belong where I am wanted. In my own home. (sounds strange huh).
I want to thank you all for all the wise advice, standing behind me all these years with a 2x4 in hand when I needed it.
I don't know what the future holds for myself but I know the past will not keep me hostage either, so it is one day at a time for me, counting all my blessings, and thanking God that I made through again.
DD 21 and DS 16
Separated Aug 2012
Moved back home Oct 31 2013
Separated again June 2014. Heading toward divorce.
False R. Still Lying.
"You never know how strong you are until being strong is all you have left"