Be gentle with yourself but firm on NC. It is times like these when I found/find it the hardest. My 6 y/o asked me recently if I was still going to be her mum now that Whaura is her other mum. She was scared I might not be. Can you imagine? I wanted to weep and rip his face off all at the same time. As long as she isn't unkind to them I can suck it up.
Better the whore you know. I had hoped for better for them but it is what it is.
My girls are little but I don't expect that feeling that they are my babies will ever go away.
I'm sad for DS that in order to have a relationship with his dad he has to have Shrek around.
I'm glad the kids know about the A. They will still love their dad, and will love him for *who he really is*, not some made up fantasy of who they think he is.
They are learning to love unconditionally. Something CAT is uncapable of.
Hopefully DSS will keep his distance from shrek on his own.
He better not show his face for a while or he might still get kicked in the nads and throat punched.
OK but just a little one....
Wait. I'm joking! Stomp him until be is a stain on the carpet IN YOUR MIND. Have his picture up at target practice.
I used to scrub the bathroom like I was scrubbing his face off. I loved having a sparkling clean home during the rage cleaning phase.
OTOH ~ YOUR D IS FINAL AND YOUR GOING TO VEGAS!! That's fricken awesome!! Yahooo!!