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User Topic: I failed miserabley at NC
Numb2014
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Member # 43919
Default  Posted: 2:38 PM, July 10th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage


BW-me (31)
WXH-him (30)
DD-4, DS-14
High school sweethearts. 14 years gone. He doesn't even care. It meant nothing to him.
False R-3/2011 to 6/2014
Found evidence going back 2 years. He's moving in with OW.

Posts: 233 | Registered: Jun 2014
WeepingBuddhist
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Member # 39139
Default  Posted: 2:57 PM, July 10th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Honey, it's a no credit class. Just retake it!!!


Me: BS 46
Him: unimportant
D Day:4-27-13
DIVORCED!!! 2-20-14

Posts: 676 | Registered: Apr 2013 | From: Columbus
Numb2014
♀ 43919
Member # 43919
Default  Posted: 3:09 PM, July 10th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

Apparently, I only look out for me, I neglect the kids, I neglected him. Cheating isnt want broke us up, the way I treated him is what ended us. He worked so hard for us and loved me more than he loved himself but I pushed him away time and time again and used hateful words to him. I reminded him that when I was hateful was because I found him to be cheating (or at the very least, very poor boundary lines), and he tells me that I assumed too much and that they were just girls he was goofing around with.

Its all about me and how I wronged him and how now I am making the kids suffer. He has not money to treat to kids to this or that, yet the kids see me spending money left and right and that the message I am sending them is that I am only worried about me and me only. We went out to dinner two nights ago. Tonight, me and the kids have plans. Oh, and because I choose to go to the gym after work (the only time I have), and sometimes fail to make dinner, I am neglecting them. Yet, he never answered me when I asked him why he doesnt make dinner. FYI- they eat. left overs, sandwiches, or we go out to eat.


BW-me (31)
WXH-him (30)
DD-4, DS-14
High school sweethearts. 14 years gone. He doesn't even care. It meant nothing to him.
False R-3/2011 to 6/2014
Found evidence going back 2 years. He's moving in with OW.

Posts: 233 | Registered: Jun 2014
StillLivin
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Member # 40229
Default  Posted: 3:21 PM, July 10th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

He is justifying. You already know the truth. In the beginning we break no contact to defend ourselves and to try and use reason to get them to admit some culpability. He is refusing reason and logic because he doesn't want to just own his shit. He uses lies and twisted facts to blame shift and make it your fault. NOTHING you say or do is going to get through to him. And.THAT is why NC = no new hurts. Quit talking to him unless it's kids and finances. Just hang up when it veers off track. Of course he will text you and tell you how rude and immature you are being, but FTG. Personally I told Trollfucker to go f... himself a few times before hanging up. Nowadays I don't even take his phone calls and rarely his texts. Almost everything is email.
Remember, you know the truth and that's all that matters.


I don't need further confirmation of what a fuckwit he is. I already have plenty, thanks very much. -SBB
D: 7/2/2014

Posts: 2556 | Registered: Aug 2013 | From: AZ
Numb2014
♀ 43919
Member # 43919
Default  Posted: 3:30 PM, July 10th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

The pain of it all still sucks. I honestly thought that I was handling myself better this time around. Now, the intense pain has kicked in. He practically laughed when I mentioned him cheating and in a roundabout way, rubbed her in my face. Because I refused his time and affection, he was forced to give it someone else willing to accept it. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.

Last night, I had a dream that there was a large black hole in the ground in the backyard. Not my backyard, some strange backyard. My friends in my dream thought it would be funny to toss others in there to see if they could tell us what was on the bottom. Well, this black hole was endless and everyone who was pushed in died. I, in the meantime, was sleeping on the couch and refused to participate in this, and even feared that they would try to push me in. Then switch to me holding a hatchet, chasing some girl--i have on idea who it was, and right as I got to her, her kids appeared, so I quickly hid the hatchet. While her kids were asking me what I was doing, some guy came up to her, held her head in his hands in a caressing way, then quickly jerked her head and broke her neck, killing her instantly.

I'm just rambling, but it was a very disturbing dream to me and I woke up form that dream feeling very uneasy about today. I think now I know why. Something about that dream told me that I would be feeling like this...is this forever? Does there come a time when the pain stops? Does there come a time when you JUST DON'T CARE anymore? Does there come a time where they just leave you the FUCK alone!?


BW-me (31)
WXH-him (30)
DD-4, DS-14
High school sweethearts. 14 years gone. He doesn't even care. It meant nothing to him.
False R-3/2011 to 6/2014
Found evidence going back 2 years. He's moving in with OW.

Posts: 233 | Registered: Jun 2014
Numb2014
♀ 43919
Member # 43919
Default  Posted: 3:30 PM, July 10th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

The pain of it all still sucks. I honestly thought that I was handling myself better this time around. Now, the intense pain has kicked in. He practically laughed when I mentioned him cheating and in a roundabout way, rubbed her in my face. Because I refused his time and affection, he was forced to give it someone else willing to accept it. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up.

Last night, I had a dream that there was a large black hole in the ground in the backyard. Not my backyard, some strange backyard. My friends in my dream thought it would be funny to toss others in there to see if they could tell us what was on the bottom. Well, this black hole was endless and everyone who was pushed in died. I, in the meantime, was sleeping on the couch and refused to participate in this, and even feared that they would try to push me in. Then suddenly, like most dream, my dream switched to me holding a hatchet, chasing some girl--i have on idea who it was, and right as I got to her, her kids appeared, so I quickly hid the hatchet. While her kids were asking me what I was doing, some guy came up to her, held her head in his hands in a caressing way, then quickly jerked her head and broke her neck, killing her instantly.

I'm just rambling, but it was a very disturbing dream to me and I woke up form that dream feeling very uneasy about today. I think now I know why. Something about that dream told me that I would be feeling like this...is this forever? Does there come a time when the pain stops? Does there come a time when you JUST DON'T CARE anymore? Does there come a time where they just leave you the FUCK alone!?

[This message edited by Numb2014 at 3:41 PM, July 10th (Thursday)]


BW-me (31)
WXH-him (30)
DD-4, DS-14
High school sweethearts. 14 years gone. He doesn't even care. It meant nothing to him.
False R-3/2011 to 6/2014
Found evidence going back 2 years. He's moving in with OW.

Posts: 233 | Registered: Jun 2014
Numb2014
♀ 43919
Member # 43919
Default  Posted: 5:09 PM, July 10th (Thursday), 2014View ProfileEdit MessagePrivate MessageHomepage

why do they rewrite history???

Now he is pissed that I won't give him money for his neccessities. Swears he wasn't cheating on me. So I caved, I checked his emails. He sure as fuck IS CHEATING and he wants me to give him gas money!?!?

I just have to remember, he is my daughters father. I don't wish that I didn't meet him. I just have to keep reminding myself this....


BW-me (31)
WXH-him (30)
DD-4, DS-14
High school sweethearts. 14 years gone. He doesn't even care. It meant nothing to him.
False R-3/2011 to 6/2014
Found evidence going back 2 years. He's moving in with OW.

Posts: 233 | Registered: Jun 2014
Topic Posts: 7

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