We have had sex since the lid was blown off the A however, WW will only do it on a weekend morning (takes way less time), and she doesn't participate at all. Just lays there, awkwardly trying to figure out where to put her hands. This charity sex is simply to pacify me (in her mind). She thinks, as long as home life is back to normal and I'm getting SOMETHING, we can just move forward.
She doesn't know about my search for a divorce attorney.
I just started doing the 180, and haven't had sex with her, all week. This is killing me on so many levels. I don't want to have sex with her because i'll feel awful after however, she is perfect for me physically, and it's driving me insane, not having sex with her.
Before I found SI, I had considered Ashley madison and other cheating sites, as well as trying my luck at bars, to try and find a willing partner to help transition away from WW and her perfect mortal coil.
Have any of you considered or successfully found someone else while waiting for your WS to fess up, or waiting for the M to completely collapse?
I don't know if I could, but even if I could, i'd be afraid of getting caught and having it screw up custody after i eventually serve WW with DIV papers,
now if I could, but even if I could, i'd be afraid of getting caught and having it screw up custody after i eventually serve WW with DIV papers,
Um.... What about losing your integrity? Are you in IC?
me (WW/BS): 48
4 kiddos in mid 20's
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Going through with it is a very different matter.
This soon after d-day, you're probably still in shock. You're not thinking as competently as you usually do, so you're much more likely than usual to be make a mistake. More important, perhaps, since many WSes wake up when they're served, you may find yourself with a remorseful WS with whom you'd like to R. A revenge A will be a big hindrance.
Preserve your integrity. You'll be glad you did.
Have you considered cheating on your cheater?
No, I have far more self respect than that. Never would I abandon my morals. I would leave the M before I would cheat.
The truth hurts, but I have never seen it cause the pain that lies do.
I think it's normal to feel that way but acting on it would likely only lead to many more problems compounding an already horrible situation. My WH told me this week that he is worried that I will go have "revenge sex"! Lol - guess even though I am not going to, I will let him think it! But then I think I am stopping to his level and that gains nothing!
Keep your head up! If the M doesn't work then go out and find your Ms. perfect! The one who won't cheat! Believe me she will be there and likely scarred from someone breaking her ─▄█▀█▄──▄███▄─ ▐█░██████████▌ ─██▒█████████─ ──▀████████▀── ─────▀██▀───── too!
She actually told me that she'd understand if a had my own A -- I think she thought that would take some of the guilt away or something.
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Your wife wouldn't be hurt the same way you've been hurt. She would know if was simply for revenge. You would then be lowered to her level, she feels better, you feel worse and as a bonus, you get to possibly take home your very own std.
People do go without sex for periods of time, and I think this might be one of those times for you. You really have bigger fish to fry right now, which I know you know - starting with that VAR.
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What doesn't kill me, scars me.
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Do not use someone to fill the hole you feel.
Build yourself up from within, on your own, the right way. It's slow, but it will pay dividends.
Look. Seriously. This is not about sex. This is not about scratching an itch. You keep saying it is, but it's not. Dig deeper and ask yourself what it IS about. Then ask yourself whether you want to become another person who harms himself and others in an attempt to fix the broken. (And that's not a judgment; none of us are unbroken, on the heels of d-day.)
For me, sex was/is an expression of love. I can't do that with some stranger for revenge. Defeats the whole purpose. If I want meaningless physical exercise, I'll sleep with Dipshit STBXH.
Double Betrayal D-Day 7/26/2013
Two steps forward and one step backwards, is still progress.
Stay the better person, if you ask any of the mad hatters here I am sure they will tell you not to do it.
I think you should continue to 180. Hang with friends, go to gym, focus on any other hobbies you have... Sex with her... Hmmm.... I'm not sure you should be doing that right now at all, especially if she might be sleeping around. If you do, I would double wrap it... ( that also might make her think about her choices).
Don't stoop to her level. Come out of this the better person.
Well, for about 2 minutes I did. The OWs then BH was willing and wanted to "get back at them" but there was no way I could cheat. Just had no desire to stoop down to the level of pond scum, you know?
I'm so,glad I never did, either. I'm divorced from the doosh now and can still say no when asked if I ever cheated on my husband.
Don't do it. Get divorced forts, or fox your marriage, but don't be a cheater... Can't you see all the destruction that choice causes by reading here?
Two wrongs don't make a right. And you have to look at yourself in the mirror every morning.
Can you live with that? Or is it better to take the high road and keep your integrity and moral compass straight? It's your choice. Make the right decision. Just my 2 cents.