"It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone."
But doesn't that happen with all wounds? The scar remains. But I can live with that. I'm strong. Today, I'm strong.
Overtime you let go especially with the OW or OM there is a justice of some sort. You if you give yourself the opportunity simply get busy with your new life.
It is like a dress you saw in the window and someone else bought it - it is gone but overtime you think of it but the thoughts lessen to make room for other dresses.
Hang in there and don't pressure yourself. No one until they are in your situation would know what they would really do.
Does it still smart after all this time? Sometimes. If I pick at the memory and focus on the parts of it that hurt so much.
There are other things between me and the hurt though. And those years, and survival moments are a buffer.
Time is something that can't be gotten any way but patience. But from where I am now? It feels like healing.
My mottos have been "chin up eyes forward" at the beginning... "I can do this" in the middle "Alright, this is excellent and what isn't excellent is pretty damn fun" on the other side...
I simply got to the point where I couldn't waste anymore time on what had been done to me... I had to focus on what I can do for me...
One thing I can't make more of in my life is time... None of us can... I now live with one motto....
"The fuse is burning".... what am I going to do with the fuse I have left?
WB
James Taylor
[This message edited by sparkysable at 1:28 AM, July 15th (Tuesday)]
Time can help heal, but it's what you choose to do with the time that helps healing so much more. If a wound is festering, get help. Don't let it poison you.
I agree with inconnu. Although time helps we must be committed and determined to heal ourselves as well. I was not going to allow XWH to steal my future as well as my past. As far as I was concerned he had stolen more than enough from me. Even when I wanted to hide from the world and just die I made myself get up and get dressed and go out to activities I once enjoyed. Fake it till you make it, you might be surprised that in the end you may have actually had fun. I made it my mission to find myself again, I did it for myself, for my sons and for the many people who dearly loved me. In whose eyes I could see the hurt and pain, my pain was causing them.
Join meetup groups, get involved in volunteer groups do what ever it takes to spend as little time as possible dwelling on this pain. One day you may look up and realize you have not cried in a few months and then it could be a year, and so on. My heart goes out to you, I know the pain your in, we all do here. One day at a time, one step at a time you can reclaim your life and your happiness, just keep moving forward. ((((hugs)))))
God has breathed new life into me fanning my fading Embers into a brightly burning Fire.
Time just makes it easier to cope with.
[This message edited by lynnm1947 at 1:08 PM, July 17th (Thursday)]
"I could have missed the pain, but I would have had to miss the dance." Garth Brooks
I just read through you profile and I can feel your pain. It hasn't been that long and and it sounds like you lived many years very unhappy. It takes its toll. Pain demands its price.
I think I agree with everyone depending on the day. Yesterday & today I'm kinda in a funk, and really feel that you're right. For me time has just taken away the intensity.
My marriage left me stripped of who I was and as a result I am in the process of defining a new self. Some days I am excited about the process, other days I am resentful as hell. Today I am just sad.
Either way the scars still remain and become a part of who we are, and in that sense they are never gone.
I have finally found my voice and it is good!
My scars are pretty deep and will remind me of my ordeal for a long time, but they have healed over and are no longer a threat to my existence.
Me: FBS (no longer betrayed nor a spouse)-62 Him: WXH-62 D-day: 2007 (two years before finding SI) S: 6/2010; D: 3/2011
Some of us like me had fractures so bad that we chose to amputate the leg to recover faster. If I didn't amputate that broken leg it might get gangrene, fester, and rot. That infection that invaded my spirit left me angry and was killing me slowly over time. Sometimes we try to save the leg and the chronic pain is so much that we eventually have no choice but to amputate even after trying to deal with it for so long. Well I didn't amputate immediately but when the pain became chronic and wouldn't go away I pulled the damn chainsaw out and cut it off myself.
It takes some of us a bit of time to realize that this is/was a dealbreaker and if it is that is a perfectly acceptable option.
[This message edited by 7yrsflushed at 8:56 AM, July 18th (Friday)]
Some still ache when the weather changes.
Yes.
I am 6 years out and have pursued healing every step of the way. Yet I still hurt, and I think I always will. I just don't let it get in my way of a joyful fulfilled life so much. It does get in the way sometimes, but not totally.
I don't believe I will heal so that it was like it never happened though, do don't think that just because you still hurt sometimes that you are a failure at healing.
