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D day 5 years later

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 luvedmypbear (original poster member #25690) posted at 11:17 PM on Monday, July 14th, 2014

Today is it, the one I have been waiting for! The benchmark at the end of the rainbow that was hanging out there for so long..... It has been 5 years since that horrible moment went I accidentally found out the love of my life had slept with my friend while I was nursing my son and carrying my daughter and had continued a sexual relationship via email and phone over 2 years that followed.

I thought I died.

Year 1 crept Along

No remorse

Year 2

More of the same and worse

Year 3 I lost all function And purpose

Divorced but confused

Still sleeping with ex on occasion

No life purpose

Terrible everything

Had another child with him

Now year 5

Still destroyed by the thought

Devastated

Pregnant again with another child

He will never ever know how he destroyed me

He will never feel it or care

I am healing but not healed

Did everything wrong

Just saw xmow's sister for the first time since DDay

She is still an evil POS who encouraged her sister to pursue my then H

Anyway

5 years if ws is remorseful would feel different I am sure

But it still feels good to have some time between then and now

Wish I could have a do over of my twenties

But now at almost 40 I need to embrace the good

Our kids

No matter what they are amazing

And I think I will be ok too

luvedmypbear didn’t care what you thought. She knew she was a badass.

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wifehad5 ( Administrator #15162) posted at 2:21 AM on Tuesday, July 15th, 2014

And I think I will be ok too

FBH - 52 FWW - 53 (BrokenRoad)2 kids 17 & 22The people you do your life with shape the life you live

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LostMySoulMate1 ( member #31833) posted at 4:48 AM on Tuesday, July 15th, 2014

After 5 years, after dealing with so many emotions we go thru, its so hard to work what we need in our lives, when dealing with so much pain, I do know i dont see the man i married, i see the man I lost, i hope i believe in love one day, not with him, he is broken, and i realise i cannot help him, if he doesnt help himself, I am more mature, and if your really true to yourself and beliefs,and who i am as a person is so strong that is why i will never accept cheating, I have changed as a person and i respect myself so much that i do what i want when i like, i wont cheat if the chance comes to me I meet another man i will be upfront, but as a wife my duties were taken away, and i am living a less stress full life, take care.

ME:BW42 HIM:WS40 MARRIED19years 2Teens DdayFeb2009.

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