Me - BS original Dday 10-2012, separated June 2014, divorce Fall 2016
I didn't so much see this one coming, at least not yet. I filed for divorce a week and a half ago, should have a LONG time ago. I wasn't expecting things to feel like this. I am literally being awaken from a horrible dream and running full force into a new life.
A life where I can laugh, a life where I have fun, a life where I have friends, a life where I am *ME* again. That life has finally started, despite SAWH still living on my couch for now. I am moving on and not in an icky way, in a healthy way. Clearly I am not used to healthy and I must say it feels awesome!
I hurt like hell still when I stop long enough to feel it. That's OK though. Part of being me is having big intense feelings. But gosh darn it - somehow I finally realized I am worth more and am on a mission to give myself what he couldn't give to me.
It's about time!
Grief, loss and pain taunt her - "you will never be the same." Like a Phoenix rising from the ashes, she rises and spreads her new wings as she brushes off the ashes an