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Reallymessedup (original poster new member #39579) posted at 2:19 AM on Thursday, July 24th, 2014
In IC now and am being taken down this path. Anyone ever heard of it and if so any thoughts.
Basically it is the theory that two personalities exit, in my case a tightly wound, buttoned up dude that knew he had to clean up his act and do all the right things-good husband, good father, etc. Only dealt with the typical male emotions of anger and rage because of societal norms and upbringing. Had the wild side full of emotions, but kept that tamped down because that was not allowed in the tightly wound world that was expected/required. Never merged the two or learned how to blend and continue to be a productive citizen. Kept things tamped down until choosing to let loose and dove into an affair. Not providing an excuse that allowed the affair because that part was a choice, but rather the why it was close to the surface and came out when chosen/allowed.
Still exploring and looking for the why. Just wondering if anyone has heard of this and any helpful thoughts.
GetEvenInAZ ( member #30891) posted at 7:47 AM on Thursday, July 24th, 2014
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Me: BW (44)
now xH (44)
20 yrs, 2 wonderful kids, and up to 5 - make it 6 DDays
SlowUptake ( member #40484) posted at 1:55 PM on Thursday, July 24th, 2014
Sounds to me like just another psycho-babble excuse for selfish, entitled behaviour.
But if this percieved scenario is the catalyst for real change, then who am I to judge whether it's a valid path or not?
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Me:WS,50+
Her:BS,50+ (WantToWakeUp)
Married 33yrs
Dday Dec 2009
"Do not say a little in many words but a great deal in a few." Pythagoras
There are two kinds of people in the world.
Those who can extrapolate from incomplete data.
somethingremorse ( member #42047) posted at 2:54 PM on Thursday, July 24th, 2014
That sounds like a good start. You are learning what happened. That's the first step.
What you wrote doesn't sound like "why" yet to me. Why didn't you let emotions out, why were you afraid to acknowledge anger, why did you think an A eas acceptible instead of all the healthy things you could have done.
You have started, but you have a lot ahead of ukulele. Keep moving forward.
Me: WH (40s)
DDay 11/03/13
In MC and IC
badchoice ( member #35566) posted at 4:11 PM on Thursday, July 24th, 2014
Sounds like compartmentalization. I used that as a major coping skill.
Now figure out why that was your go-to method to deal with life. Look at your past, your childhood, when you first started to use that.
Me: fWH/BH 46
Separated transitioning to D
familyfirst ( member #42651) posted at 6:39 PM on Thursday, July 24th, 2014
It's a little similar to one of my why-s. My IC says it's common that someone like me who was fairly wild during my youth, then straightened up big time for marriage/work/family to fall off the wagon in a big way when the right type of A presented itself. It's a neat way to explain my A, but the more I dig there's a lot more at play. A history of having poor boundaries, wanting to be validated, a relationship with my H that hadn't be worked on with mid life crisis on top for good measure.
The one good take away from the wild child reason was to look for appropriate ways to have challenges and thrills. Not sure if it feeds the wild child beast or not, but the ideas we've come up with sure keep me busy.
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Reallymessedup (original poster new member #39579) posted at 2:54 PM on Sunday, July 27th, 2014
Thanks for the posts on this. I really have a bunch of questions for IC this week. I think my BS would agree with Slow and Something. I thought I might be on a track for the why, but like I said I've got a lot of questions for IC. Saw a topic on here about it so I'll review the forum before my appointment so I can have a better discussion.
Anybody have any posts/Library info that they think would be a good resource?
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